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Ughhh today suckked majorly.
Ok so I basically had this long entry typed out but then it got deleted. That definitely added to my mood being pissed offf. Ughhh
My mom is super mad at me because I don't want to swim and I mad it clear to her tonight. She thinks that if I don't do two sports a year or whatever I'm going to become anti social. Umm..no. First of all I hate sports. Don't ask me why I just do. So I'll pretty much be in a shitty mood this whole fall if I swim because I'm not one who likes to stay after school every day and do something I hate. That's just not my kind of thing. Then she tells me I can always do cross country. Uhh hello I hate running. Yeah ik I did track and all but I had to do a spring sport and that involved the least amount of running. You might think since it's track and all that there would be a lot of running well trust me there wasnt. We would run 2 miles at the most but usually just 1 the whole practice. Anyways so my mom is mad and me & is telling me I should just go to Grand Blanc because she doesnt want to spend lots of money sending me to Powers if I'm not going to do two sports. I don't really understand the whole doing two sports a year thing. My sister did 0 sports all 4 years she was in high school. My brother played basketball & soccer when his grades were elgible but if he didnt want to play my parents wouldnt have forced him.
So yeah my mom is mad and me and thinks I'm basically the most negative person ever. If I'm not happy/postive all the time my mom thinks I'm depressed or something & then she tells me she thinks I need to see a therapist to talk about my problems. Sometimes I wish I could so then someone would actually listen to what I'm saying because my mom sure doesn't. But yeahh um I'm definitely not depressed or anything. I just occasionaly get mad. Who doesn't though?!
Then my parents ALWAYS compare me to my brother and sister & stuff ughhh I hate it. I swear they never get mad at them. With my brother it's sports. With my sister it's school. Even though I get better grades then my sister.. I guess my mom thinks I don't apply myself since I don't study like my sister did to get good grades. I don't really study and I get good grades..isn't that better then having to study?! I have a 3.9 & i pretty much would rather have that then be studying & get a 4.0+ & have no social lifee. Mmkk not my thing.
Oh yeahh & I guess I'm a couch potato. I'm not exactly sure what that is, but when I think of it I think of a fat person sitting on a couch. Like ik I'm not fat fat but I eat all the time so I'm pretty much fat. Kind of weird how I eat a lot yet I'm basically terrified of becoming fat (even though I am fat). Yeahh umm this probably doenst make sense.
My hair keeps falling out too. I eat better now, but yeah it pretty much still falls out. It's quite disguisting. If you're reading this definitely make sure you each right because if you don't your hair can fall out really badly. My hair is sooo fucking thin now & it used to be really thick. Since I kind of only mostly ate apples and strawberry shortcake for a couple months (I'm a VERY picky eater & those are basically the best foods ever). I guess I wasnt getting enough nutrition & protein. Now I have to eat all this gross food that has protein in it like cheese which I hatee! I've gotten a lot fatter too. Ew.
I just really wish I could take a photography class or art class this fall instead of having to do a sports. Like seriously no one is going to want someone on their team that doesn't want to be there. I'm going to suck because my heart isn't going to be in it so what is the point?!
Then somebody thinks I'm fake just because I'm not mean to people I don't like. So now that person hates me. Last year this would have bothered me because nobody likes it when people hate them, but yeahh now I could care less about someone telling me they hate me because I dont expect everyone to like me because no one has every single person they meet like them. It just pisses me off for the reason because I'm not mean to people I don't like. Whatever.
So yeah basically I'm going to diee this fall if I have to swim. & I find it kind of nasty that they don't shave their legs after homecoming until big 9. I hate hairy legs. Of course I can't tell my mom because she'll just tell me I'm negative & have a bad attitude. I seriously doubt anyone is completely postive 100% of the time. Everyone is negative & gets upset from time to time.
Yeahh um ik these are really important things but usually the less important things tend to bug me : / I feel better though now that I got that out : ] haha.
Ok so I basically had this long entry typed out but then it got deleted. That definitely added to my mood being pissed offf. Ughhh
My mom is super mad at me because I don't want to swim and I mad it clear to her tonight. She thinks that if I don't do two sports a year or whatever I'm going to become anti social. Umm..no. First of all I hate sports. Don't ask me why I just do. So I'll pretty much be in a shitty mood this whole fall if I swim because I'm not one who likes to stay after school every day and do something I hate. That's just not my kind of thing. Then she tells me I can always do cross country. Uhh hello I hate running. Yeah ik I did track and all but I had to do a spring sport and that involved the least amount of running. You might think since it's track and all that there would be a lot of running well trust me there wasnt. We would run 2 miles at the most but usually just 1 the whole practice. Anyways so my mom is mad and me & is telling me I should just go to Grand Blanc because she doesnt want to spend lots of money sending me to Powers if I'm not going to do two sports. I don't really understand the whole doing two sports a year thing. My sister did 0 sports all 4 years she was in high school. My brother played basketball & soccer when his grades were elgible but if he didnt want to play my parents wouldnt have forced him.
So yeah my mom is mad and me and thinks I'm basically the most negative person ever. If I'm not happy/postive all the time my mom thinks I'm depressed or something & then she tells me she thinks I need to see a therapist to talk about my problems. Sometimes I wish I could so then someone would actually listen to what I'm saying because my mom sure doesn't. But yeahh um I'm definitely not depressed or anything. I just occasionaly get mad. Who doesn't though?!
Then my parents ALWAYS compare me to my brother and sister & stuff ughhh I hate it. I swear they never get mad at them. With my brother it's sports. With my sister it's school. Even though I get better grades then my sister.. I guess my mom thinks I don't apply myself since I don't study like my sister did to get good grades. I don't really study and I get good grades..isn't that better then having to study?! I have a 3.9 & i pretty much would rather have that then be studying & get a 4.0+ & have no social lifee. Mmkk not my thing.
Oh yeahh & I guess I'm a couch potato. I'm not exactly sure what that is, but when I think of it I think of a fat person sitting on a couch. Like ik I'm not fat fat but I eat all the time so I'm pretty much fat. Kind of weird how I eat a lot yet I'm basically terrified of becoming fat (even though I am fat). Yeahh umm this probably doenst make sense.
My hair keeps falling out too. I eat better now, but yeah it pretty much still falls out. It's quite disguisting. If you're reading this definitely make sure you each right because if you don't your hair can fall out really badly. My hair is sooo fucking thin now & it used to be really thick. Since I kind of only mostly ate apples and strawberry shortcake for a couple months (I'm a VERY picky eater & those are basically the best foods ever). I guess I wasnt getting enough nutrition & protein. Now I have to eat all this gross food that has protein in it like cheese which I hatee! I've gotten a lot fatter too. Ew.
I just really wish I could take a photography class or art class this fall instead of having to do a sports. Like seriously no one is going to want someone on their team that doesn't want to be there. I'm going to suck because my heart isn't going to be in it so what is the point?!
Then somebody thinks I'm fake just because I'm not mean to people I don't like. So now that person hates me. Last year this would have bothered me because nobody likes it when people hate them, but yeahh now I could care less about someone telling me they hate me because I dont expect everyone to like me because no one has every single person they meet like them. It just pisses me off for the reason because I'm not mean to people I don't like. Whatever.
So yeah basically I'm going to diee this fall if I have to swim. & I find it kind of nasty that they don't shave their legs after homecoming until big 9. I hate hairy legs. Of course I can't tell my mom because she'll just tell me I'm negative & have a bad attitude. I seriously doubt anyone is completely postive 100% of the time. Everyone is negative & gets upset from time to time.
Yeahh um ik these are really important things but usually the less important things tend to bug me : / I feel better though now that I got that out : ] haha.