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[ohhowilove_you]

so whats new ... i dont even know. im bored like always. and cold. i hate wood floors. specialy all the new ones we got put in. theyre freezinnnn. im pretty sure im never ganna get over aaron, even if like i think i am. im not ... just stupid little things that chris doesnt do that aaron did like, bug me. they make me think about how much i miss

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Life After Shit.

[trippinjay]

Katy, first of all, you're drop dead gorgeous! And I'm a hot stud, so I have no reason to tell ordinary girls that! ;) But honestly, you need to think about why you are still madly in love with Aaron. What did he ever do to improve your life? What did he ever do that wasn't 98% selfish? Katy, I think you're in love with the idea of Aaron and changing him and making him love you because he's really only loved himself his whole life. There's nothing unusual about that, most people have som sort of a hero complex (or else why would I have dated that slut Lauren?) But, Katy, you have a boyfriend who loves you and takes care of you and takes your shit because he thinks you're worth it. He loves your daughter more then her own father does. That says alot about who both of these men are. I understand your affinity for Aaron, but you're gonna have to start looking at things logically. Stop wanting what you can't have just cuz you can't have it and start being happy with the blessings you do have, because Katy, you're alot healthier person than the girl I first met and I think alot of that is because you have a supportive guy in your life who values you like you deserve. It's time to put childish things behind you and start seeing how blessed you are. Aaron drove you to a point where you almost killed yourself and barely gave a fuck. It was all just an inconvenience to him. How can you think of a person of that low of quality and honestly believe there is something in them that makes you love them? You really don't love him because he has no love. You are in love with the idea of what you want him to be and having this one person who really doesn't love anybody but himself be in love with you. But, it's not what you really need in your heart, it's the selfish side of you. Don't feel bad, just try to see it for what it is. Katy, I love you and so does the whole crew. If you ever need anything you know where to look. It's not Aaron because he's not someone worth loving, because he has no qualities of selflisness. Don't fool yourself into thinking there is only Aaron. The reality is there is only everything but Aaron and that's the thought that makes me know you're gonna be ok! Love ya, darlin!

~Captain

PS. I love Chris too, he's a good guy and I can tell now that you mean the world to him!

Re: Life After Shit.

[ohhowilove_you]

i love him too, but like i want to get butterflies when i see him, and when he calls and i want someone who will do nice little things for me and bla bla. i ask for too much, and ill probably never be happy again.

Re: Life After Shit.

[trippinjay]

Butterflies only last for so long. Eventually you get comfortable with the person and there's nothing to worry about. That's a good thing. Those butterflies you get when you see Aaron, that's because he treats you bad and you're still looking for his approval. You'll be happy, and even if things don't work out with Chris, it's not the end of the world. Stop looking at it like you have only two options. I'm single and have been for almost 4 years, but that doesn't mean I'm just never gonna be happy or in a good relationship. It takes time, darlin!

Love,
~Captain