why
matt you are everything
everything is you
you're everywhere
i cant do this.
there is not a single way i can handle this.
its 3am. i cant sleep.
why wasnt i enough
what could i have done differently
im sorry i wasnt enough
all i ever wanted was to be with you.
im in love with you
this isnt making sense
i cant stop crying
this is my fault
all of it
i had to have done something
please dont do this
please.
all i ever wanted was you.
thats it.
i hate imagining you with someone else.
you pushed me
i had a dream last night
i dreamed that this while thing was a dream.
i only slept for 15 minutes.
i shouldnt be doing this.
damnit i trusted you.
you told me you were different.
you promised me.
i have nothing.
and all i want is you.
i miss you
and im so sorry if i did this.
you guys please help me.
i know i dont want it
but i need people around me.
im sorry if i pushed you away
but you ruined me.
you say you hate jon
well your just like him.
and that kills me.
i
love
you
i love you
I LOVE YOU
i never didnt mean that.
i meant it every time.
i fell in love with a boy.
i want that story you wrote as well.
why did you have to do this
i planned so much around you
why did you have to lie
if there was someone else
why couldnt you tell me
i told you everything from the get go
you knew i would not be able to handle this.
and i cant.
this is the begining of the end.
i want to go to indiana and leave this place.
this isnt fair.
i never lied to you.
why do i deserve this
im sorry matthew.
im sorry i wasnt enough.