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"why are so sad?"
::thinking how dumb a question that is:: "because the world is so sad."
the sad ones are the glamorous ones. the ones that appreciate the beauty in despair...the hope in hopeless. because..sad is one of the most passionate, intimate, comforting, anguishing feelings.
"because..without sad, then what is happy...'why do you keep hitting yourself with a hammer?' 'because it feels so good when i stop.' because all of the pain in the world deserves someone to cry over it..even if they think they are crying becasue they stubbed thier toe. ever do that? ever stub your toe and break down...crying wayyy too hard? and after the fact you feel silly..yet relieved...pained...nostalgic...homesick...catholic?( the lowercase 'c' kind..) thats becasue you ARENT crying for your puffy toe. you are crying for everything. because the pain generated by you is insignificant to the whole..but you are connected to the whole in a way, so when you cry, you cry the emotions of all....if you open yourself up to it. andwhen you do that, you can finally be truly objective, empathetic, sympathetic, bias..then you wont judge..you wont envy..you wont hate. i am sad because i want that. im sad because i see the bigger. i understand that spilling coffee on my shirt doesnt ruin my day..i understand that if a boy doesnt like me i dont have to lie in bed or cry to my friends...i understand that loosing my wallet and my parking spot in the same day doesnt mean that the universe is against me. those things are not worth crying over. real sad makes you strong...happy people arent strong, they are just naive."
its weird to connect with a happy person. with a person who hasnt dealt with any real bad in their life. this is new for me..
::thinking how dumb a question that is:: "because the world is so sad."
the sad ones are the glamorous ones. the ones that appreciate the beauty in despair...the hope in hopeless. because..sad is one of the most passionate, intimate, comforting, anguishing feelings.
"because..without sad, then what is happy...'why do you keep hitting yourself with a hammer?' 'because it feels so good when i stop.' because all of the pain in the world deserves someone to cry over it..even if they think they are crying becasue they stubbed thier toe. ever do that? ever stub your toe and break down...crying wayyy too hard? and after the fact you feel silly..yet relieved...pained...nostalgic...homesick...catholic?( the lowercase 'c' kind..) thats becasue you ARENT crying for your puffy toe. you are crying for everything. because the pain generated by you is insignificant to the whole..but you are connected to the whole in a way, so when you cry, you cry the emotions of all....if you open yourself up to it. andwhen you do that, you can finally be truly objective, empathetic, sympathetic, bias..then you wont judge..you wont envy..you wont hate. i am sad because i want that. im sad because i see the bigger. i understand that spilling coffee on my shirt doesnt ruin my day..i understand that if a boy doesnt like me i dont have to lie in bed or cry to my friends...i understand that loosing my wallet and my parking spot in the same day doesnt mean that the universe is against me. those things are not worth crying over. real sad makes you strong...happy people arent strong, they are just naive."
its weird to connect with a happy person. with a person who hasnt dealt with any real bad in their life. this is new for me..