i'm fucking scared of failure

[ohhhromance]

i can't even describe the feeling i get when life seems like too much.
not depressed, not angry or frustrated. not even overwhelmed.
more like the feeling of a deep sigh, and a plea for a break.
for a time when its easy and all questions are answered.

the question that plagues me the most is whether i should keep pushing through,
knowing in time all things pass and questions will be answered and then new questions will arise.

or to head to my comforting bed that knows nothing and asks nothing surrounded in red walls,
and close my eyes for an eternal sleep of peace.

?