May 17, 2005 01:04
Tomorrow I see the Rilo Kiley for free in the Kentucky with the Andi. For free you ask? Andi told me to sign up for Music for America or something. I'm not entirely sure, but Andi knows what's up. Which brings me to my next point. To me, volunteering means I should get something in return. This is why I refuse community service unless I get something back. Call me an a-hole, but it's impossible to care about everyone else without any self-interest involved. But then again, who cares about my motivations, because ultimately I am still volunteering, therefore helping some cause. So my conclusion is my self-interest is the most important part to volunteering because it keeps me motivated, thus performing a task at hand. Even when people are only out to help other people, they are satisfying their own need of making other people feel better. So really, volunteering is always both ways, and no one should ever be thanking anyone for volunteering. My parents volunteer at Golden Endings all the time. Why? Because they love dogs and they love helping dogs. It is still their self-satisfaction that drives them to volunteer.
Number 2.
I hate optomism. The cup example is bullshit because can you really judge someones character by asking whether the water in the god damn cup is half empty or full? (Notice how I said empty first. That means I am pessmistic and kick puppies). What I hate even more is the type of person (girl) that wins "Most Optomisic" in their school's yearbook. Optomism is bullshit. No one cares about the best of a situation. What they care about is the worst part of a situation, because that what ultimately bothers them. If everythign were perfect no one would be complaining in the first place. Plus if you always view the negative, everything only gets better from there. For example, if I can't find anything to do at night, I assume that everyone sucks and I'll never find anything to do. This way, I can never be let down. I can only be surprised and things can only get better. If I expect the worst and get it, then no surprises there. It's actually comforting knowing you "called" something. On the other hand, if I had high hopes about finding something to do one night and then I didn't do anything, I'd be dissapointed. Being dissapointed blows, and it all stems from being optomistic. And I guess that's my main point. Optomism only lets people down, while pessimism assumes the worst and climbs up from there.
BUT
Pessimism has a negative connotation because of the damn yearbooks. I can recall sometime in my life when some girl said something stupid to me (one of those "Well at least....(fill in bullshit)",) and then followed it up with "yeah, I'm trying to win most optomistic in the yearbook". Geeyyyy.