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Even though my thoughts of him are slowly (but surely) dwindling, and even though I'm in love with our apartment, there always has to be something to interfere. It's all a very long and very ridiculous story.
I lost two friends after I lost Justin. What makes all of this so humorous is that I did absolutely nothing wrong. I trusted Anthony too quickly to consider him being a ridiculous excuse for a human being. I made an uneducated assumption in thinking that Brittany would believe her friend's words over some guy's. It's not so much of a sad story. It's just unnecessary. I don't appreciate being called promiscuous. You don't know me well enough if you can say that about me. If you don't want to be a part of my life, then don't have me as a topic to be constantly discussed.
What makes it even sweeter for me, is that both Monica and Ryan see right through it. Trying to discredit me will not work. Monica and I are like peas and carrots. And there is always going to be this silent attraction between Ryan and I. They laugh with me. That's why I'm at ease with this.
Here I am, trying to find peace with myself.
But, it's okay.
Encountering bullshit is never-ending with me.