thisisntalrightbyme.
okay i had a very thoughtful night. i went to oneonta to get my sisters car and sleep over
SIDE NOTE: my car's tire caught on fire or something and its going in the shop.
so anyways i smoked a lot and drank a bit too. so i was fucked up.
prior to this we went to a fashion show (yay!) and i brought my ipod and put on TIME CONSUMER by COHEED AND CAMBRIA and it was amazing. everyone should listen to that now. so i just listened to them and really watched people. the audience, the models, mostly the designers, and kinda myself, too. i could always tell who was the designer because for the moment they were the only ones watching the crowd with me because they wanted to see peoples reactions to their 'works.' there were some beautiful models but i decided to give credit to the designers because they are the hunters. the choice makers who captured the prey's beauty and made him/her stand out. meanwhile i couldnt stop thinking about how i was the only one taking the time to think like this/ observe all of it.
secondly, i would like to say that i live in the best neighborhood ever. clifton knolls. allow me to explain.
it has the parks. i know i just got a ticket from being there after 10 which is ridiculous but they are fun and very convenient and close. there are 3 parks. then there are 2 public pools (i could never enjoy them because there are too many people. i get like panic attacks because i think too much. its just too much for me to see so many people and try to figure them all out. but to everyone except me the pools are fun. then there are a lot of kids. and the kids thing was great while i was growing up because we always played b ball or some sport and i loved that because we were all young, innocent, and had nothing but the sport to focus on. INFINITE. the social status of the neighborhood is wonderful. people walk a lot, jog. ride bikes, enjoy the previously listed attractions. people utuilizing the nice weather makes me happier and makes me think positively, or something. we have a golf course... i dont do that often but its nice to have. THE BEST---> we have ponds... they have paths around them but they are beautiful. people fish in them. one has a fountain. animals form habitats and communities by them. this one has a peninsula. its amazing and nothing less. its juust perfect and it has two benches on it and i love it. i just go and sit there by myself. sometimes i go for hours. its the best to hit it up while sleep seems to eliminate itself as an option. i think. and its the best. it might be my favorite place.
my other possible favorite place: my grandparents cottage on the small lake. BEAUTIFUL. the most beautiful place in the world. my grandpa keeps the gardens flawless. the red painted wood just fits the mood. they live up on a hill. the grass has never been greener and it just over looks this 6-miles radiused lake. the water is smooth and appears so even on the windiest days. the rain can fall as hard as possible and still could never steal its beauty. the tiny harbor is about ours. neighbors share but theres hardly ever any intereaction among groups. its better that way. 7 boats aligned perfectly by professionally designed wooden platforms, and a rope swing that has the perfect parabolic form and the best release spot (not too high and not too low) for the thrill ride of a lifetime.
the two owners (my grandparents are amazing.) and i feel their time maybe be thinning and i hate how everything gets fucking ruined. relationships, honesty, innocence. it puts me down a lot. i just get into it too much and i wish i find a happy point and freeze time so nothing ever changes.
G said i sound like holden. i think i do too. i wish i was him. i dont try to be, but its such a compliment to be compared to someone you always look up to, especially when you're being no one but yourself. the peninsula calls to me. read the whole thing and comment, so i know you care. whoever does NOT comment will not be my friend (make it anonymous but you best leave one)
SIDE NOTE: my car's tire caught on fire or something and its going in the shop.
so anyways i smoked a lot and drank a bit too. so i was fucked up.
prior to this we went to a fashion show (yay!) and i brought my ipod and put on TIME CONSUMER by COHEED AND CAMBRIA and it was amazing. everyone should listen to that now. so i just listened to them and really watched people. the audience, the models, mostly the designers, and kinda myself, too. i could always tell who was the designer because for the moment they were the only ones watching the crowd with me because they wanted to see peoples reactions to their 'works.' there were some beautiful models but i decided to give credit to the designers because they are the hunters. the choice makers who captured the prey's beauty and made him/her stand out. meanwhile i couldnt stop thinking about how i was the only one taking the time to think like this/ observe all of it.
secondly, i would like to say that i live in the best neighborhood ever. clifton knolls. allow me to explain.
it has the parks. i know i just got a ticket from being there after 10 which is ridiculous but they are fun and very convenient and close. there are 3 parks. then there are 2 public pools (i could never enjoy them because there are too many people. i get like panic attacks because i think too much. its just too much for me to see so many people and try to figure them all out. but to everyone except me the pools are fun. then there are a lot of kids. and the kids thing was great while i was growing up because we always played b ball or some sport and i loved that because we were all young, innocent, and had nothing but the sport to focus on. INFINITE. the social status of the neighborhood is wonderful. people walk a lot, jog. ride bikes, enjoy the previously listed attractions. people utuilizing the nice weather makes me happier and makes me think positively, or something. we have a golf course... i dont do that often but its nice to have. THE BEST---> we have ponds... they have paths around them but they are beautiful. people fish in them. one has a fountain. animals form habitats and communities by them. this one has a peninsula. its amazing and nothing less. its juust perfect and it has two benches on it and i love it. i just go and sit there by myself. sometimes i go for hours. its the best to hit it up while sleep seems to eliminate itself as an option. i think. and its the best. it might be my favorite place.
my other possible favorite place: my grandparents cottage on the small lake. BEAUTIFUL. the most beautiful place in the world. my grandpa keeps the gardens flawless. the red painted wood just fits the mood. they live up on a hill. the grass has never been greener and it just over looks this 6-miles radiused lake. the water is smooth and appears so even on the windiest days. the rain can fall as hard as possible and still could never steal its beauty. the tiny harbor is about ours. neighbors share but theres hardly ever any intereaction among groups. its better that way. 7 boats aligned perfectly by professionally designed wooden platforms, and a rope swing that has the perfect parabolic form and the best release spot (not too high and not too low) for the thrill ride of a lifetime.
the two owners (my grandparents are amazing.) and i feel their time maybe be thinning and i hate how everything gets fucking ruined. relationships, honesty, innocence. it puts me down a lot. i just get into it too much and i wish i find a happy point and freeze time so nothing ever changes.
G said i sound like holden. i think i do too. i wish i was him. i dont try to be, but its such a compliment to be compared to someone you always look up to, especially when you're being no one but yourself. the peninsula calls to me. read the whole thing and comment, so i know you care. whoever does NOT comment will not be my friend (make it anonymous but you best leave one)