i just hope that you arent alone.
im in a sort of depressed mood right now
its weird
i feel sick
and lonely, and emo and maybe i should skip this entry, turn up the linkin park and sit in the corner of my room and cry.
yesterday i woke up around 12. it was insane, i usually wake up around 9. i like getting no sleep. i went shopping around 3 and i bought some new nifty shirts at american eagle. thats pretty much my favorite store. and i bought will and grace season one and fear before the march of flames "odd how people shake". ive been looking for that cd forever. and i stopped in bath and body works and bought 3 hand sanitizers 'warm vanilla sugar'..im so incredibly weird. so ive been sitting here watching will and grace forever. which is good. it is such a good show.
OH! and i have a 66 average in math
and i want to cry because im so incredibly bad at math. mr. cassia even changed my seat to the front of the room. thanks.
AND TO TOP OFF MY DAY!
i got punched in the nose! yep one of those gang fights. no lisa came down from an extention and punched me right in the nose.(not right in the mouth, i am not a man..hee hee anchorman obsession) and i walked out calmly holding my nose, into the bathroom, trying not to make a scene. and i didnt cry(im so badass) and i walked back in and coach goes whats wrong! and i burst out "COACH DO I HAVE A MARSHA NOSE!"..and she goes, only you jess could have a sense of humor as your face is broken. so its a little bruised. thanks lisa, thanks for being a whore and falling on my nose.
oh on the way home i put in my new(well old) fbtmof cd and my mom sat there for 5 minutes and goes "jessica palmieri are you listening to satanic music? what the hell is this? you cant understand him, why is he screaming, do you listen to this kind of music, is this one of those songs where they 'sing' and if you play it backwards there is some satanic message, your such a weird kid"
yes mother, i worship the devil. its the newest thing.
oh and a couple days ago she said to me
"jess why dont you give me kisses anymore"
"because im 16 and kissing my mother is queer"
"jess, I GAVE YOU LIFE"
oh and my newest band is "the honorary title" they are adorable and i want to make their musical babies. especially their song "points underneath" you should download it. its really nice, ahh it makes me want to hug everyone.
but there is something to look forward to tomorrow, i guess. im going to be sporting hobo apparell (aka my cheerleading warm-ups) and after escuela, im going with some pretty ladies to panera, because it opens tomorrow, holy crap. woo im excited. i need to leave the house.
and i realize that this entry is gigantic, but heres a mini quiz.
I AM: a weird weird person/ an immature person.
I WANT: a boy/ to grow up
I HAVE: obsessions.
I WISH: i was better looking/ i hung out with people more.
I HATE: my eyes, they're huge
I FEAR: growing up to be the old cat lady. i hate cats. ah.
I HEAR: lies. a lot of lies, i hear people talking about other people, i hear horrible things.
I SEARCH: for love. haha sorry im immature.
I WONDER: if i'll ever find the right person/ if i'll ever get good grades.
I REGRET: nothing. everything happens for a reason.
I LOVE: crushes/obsessions/ finding new bands/ finding a good song you can listen to over and over that makes you feel happy/ hanging out with my friends/ making people laugh/ hugs/ kisses/ being myself/ being immature/ having my mind in the gutter at all the wrong times/ my puppy/ a good joke/ free periods/ being by myself at times/ drawing/ singing, though i suck/ having songs sung to me/ being made fun of/ will and grace...
I ACHE: hearts.
I ALWAYS: sing to myself/ watch conan/ tell jokes/ cheer people up/ make people feel better about themselves/ am optimistic
I AM NOT: happy with myself
I DANCE: all the time/ in the shower/ in my room/ in this computer room/ in the halls/ to school/ going into the refridgerator/ going upstairs.
I SING: in the shower/ in my room/ in this room, a LOT/ everywhere.
I CRY: when im frusterated/ when i cant find something/ when i lose something/ when im made fun of in a mean way/ when i think i have offended someone/ when someone says something nice to me..i cry randomly. its ridiculous/ during movies.. a LOT.
I LOST: my dog aka my best friend/ 5 friends, why? im not sure, i wasnt cool enough/ my grandfather, wow this is depressing.
I CONFUSE: everyone that ever talks to me. im weird.
I SHOULD: stop watching conan/ stop obsessing over 41 year old men/ stop biting my nails/ crying during movies/ start studying more/ get good grades/ stop cheerleading, thats why i get bad grades.
wow, that was boring, and now its almost 11. woo i <3 school.
someone leave some sort of plans, this house bores me.
oh and if i were you i'd hang out with me soon, for i'll be grounded in a week. neat!
ps. my dog just ate something, cool i must go save him from getting into trouble, because he his my little gentleman, i'll take him to foggy londontown. mm this burrito is good but it is filling. the end.
its weird
i feel sick
and lonely, and emo and maybe i should skip this entry, turn up the linkin park and sit in the corner of my room and cry.
yesterday i woke up around 12. it was insane, i usually wake up around 9. i like getting no sleep. i went shopping around 3 and i bought some new nifty shirts at american eagle. thats pretty much my favorite store. and i bought will and grace season one and fear before the march of flames "odd how people shake". ive been looking for that cd forever. and i stopped in bath and body works and bought 3 hand sanitizers 'warm vanilla sugar'..im so incredibly weird. so ive been sitting here watching will and grace forever. which is good. it is such a good show.
OH! and i have a 66 average in math
and i want to cry because im so incredibly bad at math. mr. cassia even changed my seat to the front of the room. thanks.
AND TO TOP OFF MY DAY!
i got punched in the nose! yep one of those gang fights. no lisa came down from an extention and punched me right in the nose.(not right in the mouth, i am not a man..hee hee anchorman obsession) and i walked out calmly holding my nose, into the bathroom, trying not to make a scene. and i didnt cry(im so badass) and i walked back in and coach goes whats wrong! and i burst out "COACH DO I HAVE A MARSHA NOSE!"..and she goes, only you jess could have a sense of humor as your face is broken. so its a little bruised. thanks lisa, thanks for being a whore and falling on my nose.
oh on the way home i put in my new(well old) fbtmof cd and my mom sat there for 5 minutes and goes "jessica palmieri are you listening to satanic music? what the hell is this? you cant understand him, why is he screaming, do you listen to this kind of music, is this one of those songs where they 'sing' and if you play it backwards there is some satanic message, your such a weird kid"
yes mother, i worship the devil. its the newest thing.
oh and a couple days ago she said to me
"jess why dont you give me kisses anymore"
"because im 16 and kissing my mother is queer"
"jess, I GAVE YOU LIFE"
oh and my newest band is "the honorary title" they are adorable and i want to make their musical babies. especially their song "points underneath" you should download it. its really nice, ahh it makes me want to hug everyone.
but there is something to look forward to tomorrow, i guess. im going to be sporting hobo apparell (aka my cheerleading warm-ups) and after escuela, im going with some pretty ladies to panera, because it opens tomorrow, holy crap. woo im excited. i need to leave the house.
and i realize that this entry is gigantic, but heres a mini quiz.
I AM: a weird weird person/ an immature person.
I WANT: a boy/ to grow up
I HAVE: obsessions.
I WISH: i was better looking/ i hung out with people more.
I HATE: my eyes, they're huge
I FEAR: growing up to be the old cat lady. i hate cats. ah.
I HEAR: lies. a lot of lies, i hear people talking about other people, i hear horrible things.
I SEARCH: for love. haha sorry im immature.
I WONDER: if i'll ever find the right person/ if i'll ever get good grades.
I REGRET: nothing. everything happens for a reason.
I LOVE: crushes/obsessions/ finding new bands/ finding a good song you can listen to over and over that makes you feel happy/ hanging out with my friends/ making people laugh/ hugs/ kisses/ being myself/ being immature/ having my mind in the gutter at all the wrong times/ my puppy/ a good joke/ free periods/ being by myself at times/ drawing/ singing, though i suck/ having songs sung to me/ being made fun of/ will and grace...
I ACHE: hearts.
I ALWAYS: sing to myself/ watch conan/ tell jokes/ cheer people up/ make people feel better about themselves/ am optimistic
I AM NOT: happy with myself
I DANCE: all the time/ in the shower/ in my room/ in this computer room/ in the halls/ to school/ going into the refridgerator/ going upstairs.
I SING: in the shower/ in my room/ in this room, a LOT/ everywhere.
I CRY: when im frusterated/ when i cant find something/ when i lose something/ when im made fun of in a mean way/ when i think i have offended someone/ when someone says something nice to me..i cry randomly. its ridiculous/ during movies.. a LOT.
I LOST: my dog aka my best friend/ 5 friends, why? im not sure, i wasnt cool enough/ my grandfather, wow this is depressing.
I CONFUSE: everyone that ever talks to me. im weird.
I SHOULD: stop watching conan/ stop obsessing over 41 year old men/ stop biting my nails/ crying during movies/ start studying more/ get good grades/ stop cheerleading, thats why i get bad grades.
wow, that was boring, and now its almost 11. woo i <3 school.
someone leave some sort of plans, this house bores me.
oh and if i were you i'd hang out with me soon, for i'll be grounded in a week. neat!
ps. my dog just ate something, cool i must go save him from getting into trouble, because he his my little gentleman, i'll take him to foggy londontown. mm this burrito is good but it is filling. the end.