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hm this week was absolutely horendous. i basically cried myself to sleep every night. everything lately is just horrible. my parents were such assholes this week. im sick of growing up. i wish i could just be five again. it was so much easier being little. you dont have to worry about boys. girls being bitches and backstabbing you ( cough cough ) ,people ignoring you, losing friends, school, sports. everything just stinks. me and mark broke up. and im still upset about having to end that. even though i ended it im still upset ya no? yesterday i absolutely broke down. im so fed up with everything. some people think i have this perfect life and im always happy. but only my true friends no the real me. theres so much more behind my smile. seriously i hate it. life sucks. EVERYTHING sucks. the only people that make me happy are kristy alyssa nadine lauren redding and my guy friends. guys are so much easier to be friends with because they dont stab you in the back like girls do. i love alex morgans and craig turner the mostest. al. thanks for being there to talk to yesterday it really helped :-) kristy. ugh i absoletly love you. thanks for always being there to cry to. hehe because i know you will always listen to me even when im crying hasterically and going insane! haha anyways. fieldhockey has been going pretty well. i scored and started again yesterday against brick my goal is to scored 50 goals in my career. the girls think i can do it. so thats my goal for fieldhockey =D our f.h record is 7-2 so far. were doing amazing. kristy slept over last ngiht because i needed someone to talk to so she came over. she always cheers me up. we just hung out. this morning i had fh kristy stayed at my house and i came home and we hung out some more and she had to leave to go out for her dad's b-day . and im going to my boy friend lauren reddings house tonight. this shall be fun !
comment please :-/ make me feel loved. for this and my last entry