"Where Do You Go When You're Lonely? I'll follow you..."
I've been surpressing a lot of sadness lately. I don't even know where it's coming from; it's just always been there, and I sort of never dealt with it because I figured it would just go away. But the thing is, emotions never really fade unless you take some amount of action in making them fade. And I don't know what I'm supposed to do! I'm happy but...at the same time, I'm not. I just feel really alone, and not in the whole 'Hi, I need a boy to complete me, or I'm alone' sense...more of the overall sense. I feel like a lot of people are there...but not really there. And no matter how many people surround you, you can still feel alone sometimes.
This weekend was busy busy busy. On Friday, I hung out with some crazy girls in the Sophomore class, and we did some beautiful things. Hahaha, we also got a crazy workout! Why can't you just live closer? Ugh. Anyways...we go on jogs with black sweatshirts and backpacks. Damn straight. Then Saturday I chilled with the Sophomore float at Homecoming. We should've won. Next year we will. You heard it here first (To clarify---> The Sophomores will not win next year. WE as in next year's Juniors/this year's Sophwhores will.)! Then at night, I attended Steph's Sweet Sixteen. Yay Muirfield! Yay being a skanky fairy! YAY LAUREN ALEXANDER!!!!!!!! I love Lauren. Shes the best of the best. You know it. She was my friend the whole night, hahaha. And theeeeeen today I read "A Cake for Nathan" at MJ's with people. I thought it went well. But I was being weird. I'm so friggin weird lately! Guhhhhhh. Yes. Guh.