decision making
I find myself wondering at times what it was like to date you. I can vividly imagine every one before you, but when I get to how things started a year and a half ago, how I felt at the time, it starts to get hazy. I don't know if I miss whatever I felt with you or I just block it out completely. I find myself completely second guessing myself some times, but I remember how terribly I felt and how depressed I was when we were together. I just wish things has gone down differently, I guess. the things we said to each other these past two months, have destroyed any chance of us ever reconciling as friends, and I guess that's what gets me down. you're right, we never got to hang out as just friends, ever. but I can't really imagine that working out well. I don't regret the decisions I've made, I'm falling in love with Brett every day, but you have made me so wary. I find myself confusing, most of the time. you won't ever find someone who loved you as much as I did...and you broke my spirit. I miss that the most. I miss confidence and self assurance. thanks for stealing it from me.
so as I sit...I can't help to think if things would ever be different between us. but then I know deep down the answer is no, and I have made the best decision for my own well-being. I'm not sorry that I broke your heart, because you broke mine first.
so as I sit...I can't help to think if things would ever be different between us. but then I know deep down the answer is no, and I have made the best decision for my own well-being. I'm not sorry that I broke your heart, because you broke mine first.