ahhh
i feel like this summer is worthless.
i work all of the time.
i need to find new friends, as in i don't talk to all of my old friends, not that i hate them as some might try to say.
for one reason or the other.
or maybe i need to rekindle relationships with people and not be so weird all of the time.
i feel like sometimes i call people and they think its crazy for me to ask them to hang out.
as in i call you to hang out and you act like we dont know eachother.
or maybe im just bad at reading people and i automatically have a complex of everyone is annoyed.
i dont know.
i dont know but i want to find someone who sits in their house on monday, tuesday, and wednesday, and then wednesday night becomes a total party animal and then thursday night goes back into hibernation.
then i wont feel like im missing out on anything when i have to work.
i rearranged my room for the hundreth time in the past year.
i think i have commintment issues because after about 6 months of any given thing, i am sick of it.
like what if i have kids and i dont like them.
that would be horrible.
i dont get why people cant find anything better to do with their lives then sit around and record it on little web sites.
it is kind of weird.
and yet everyone does it.
i want to get straight a's this year.
i think that would only be possible if i stopped socializing in class which is not possible.
but i really want to do it.
go to school, come home, do my homework, go to work.
i cant wait until graduation.
my brother got a card in the mail for his tenth grade reunion and he threw it away because "why would i want to go hang out with a bunch of people that i never wanted to be around in the first place."
and i am just thinking, why does everyone feel friends are so important when in 2 years your going to never see them again except when you'r grocery shopping.
or some other random thing.
this is a long ass entry.
but im done.
i work all of the time.
i need to find new friends, as in i don't talk to all of my old friends, not that i hate them as some might try to say.
for one reason or the other.
or maybe i need to rekindle relationships with people and not be so weird all of the time.
i feel like sometimes i call people and they think its crazy for me to ask them to hang out.
as in i call you to hang out and you act like we dont know eachother.
or maybe im just bad at reading people and i automatically have a complex of everyone is annoyed.
i dont know.
i dont know but i want to find someone who sits in their house on monday, tuesday, and wednesday, and then wednesday night becomes a total party animal and then thursday night goes back into hibernation.
then i wont feel like im missing out on anything when i have to work.
i rearranged my room for the hundreth time in the past year.
i think i have commintment issues because after about 6 months of any given thing, i am sick of it.
like what if i have kids and i dont like them.
that would be horrible.
i dont get why people cant find anything better to do with their lives then sit around and record it on little web sites.
it is kind of weird.
and yet everyone does it.
i want to get straight a's this year.
i think that would only be possible if i stopped socializing in class which is not possible.
but i really want to do it.
go to school, come home, do my homework, go to work.
i cant wait until graduation.
my brother got a card in the mail for his tenth grade reunion and he threw it away because "why would i want to go hang out with a bunch of people that i never wanted to be around in the first place."
and i am just thinking, why does everyone feel friends are so important when in 2 years your going to never see them again except when you'r grocery shopping.
or some other random thing.
this is a long ass entry.
but im done.