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i used to be able to write in livejournal everyday on my boring day and now i'm just not up to it because i cant put i love derrick when i'm done and today i can't put 4 months. i bet he doesnt even remember =[
i call his cell just to listen to his voice mail. i miss his voice and his laugh and his smile and his non funny jokes and the way he says button and him making fun of me and watching stupid sci-fi crap and the twilight zone. i just miss him..=[
- on the plus side. i got Jesse McCartney tickets =D Phillip was soppose to go with me but imma go, and imma be strong. this is so hard =[. August 9th. Tuesday..7:30. UNO Lakefront Arena.
RaCh 61221: but you didnt deserve it..you've been thru so much in your life && i look up 2 you bcse your such a strong person and you can handle all the stuff that goes on in your life without having a breakdown..i mean i wish i could handle everything that life throws me w/o flipping out..but i cant..but you, your just like the STRONGEST person i've EVER met kelli..and you should be happy about that. just please just keep your head up through all this.. and remember this, phillip wouldnt want you to hang on for so long, he just wants you to be happy kelli.
you know what fuck it. 4 months today, i love derrick more then anything in the world.FOR FUCKING EVER.
i call his cell just to listen to his voice mail. i miss his voice and his laugh and his smile and his non funny jokes and the way he says button and him making fun of me and watching stupid sci-fi crap and the twilight zone. i just miss him..=[
- on the plus side. i got Jesse McCartney tickets =D Phillip was soppose to go with me but imma go, and imma be strong. this is so hard =[. August 9th. Tuesday..7:30. UNO Lakefront Arena.
RaCh 61221: but you didnt deserve it..you've been thru so much in your life && i look up 2 you bcse your such a strong person and you can handle all the stuff that goes on in your life without having a breakdown..i mean i wish i could handle everything that life throws me w/o flipping out..but i cant..but you, your just like the STRONGEST person i've EVER met kelli..and you should be happy about that. just please just keep your head up through all this.. and remember this, phillip wouldnt want you to hang on for so long, he just wants you to be happy kelli.
you know what fuck it. 4 months today, i love derrick more then anything in the world.FOR FUCKING EVER.