my stomach hurts really bad this time and i just want to be home

[ohh_emm_geee]

he reminded me that the only way to / keep aliens from reading
your mind / is to wear a tinfoil hat friend and wear it all the time
life keeps on changing / tell it to stay still but it won't listen
I just want you near me like you are now for good / transistor
tape recorder, tell me about everything that I've lost / I know
you've got it all stored somewhere / at least I'm keeping my
fingers crossed / life keeps on changing / tell it to stay still but
it won't listen / I just want you near me like you are now for good
kid I'm gonna be with you longer than the world can stand cause
there's a light that's stronger / shinning out of your eyes I see it
and it won't be long now / life keeps on changing / tell it to stay still
but it won't listen / I just want you near me like you are now for good



im sorry i feel things sometimes even if they are based on nothing just my assumptions and im sorry for continuously burying these assumed truthes and then exploding and im sorry i cant talk to you about it but im scared of hurting you and im sorry that i cant talk like a normal human being and im sorry
with everything else going on right now i need extra affection because this is one of the only things that keeps me going and when i feel things arent right i can feel myself sliding its so hard to hold on to any form of rationality when im here
its just so hard to live on letters and typing and pictures and songs and nothing solid
i feel so unstable here ive never wanted my mom more and to be a kid again when it was exciting to stay in with the dogs and watch unsolved mysteries and having sleep come easy and deep as opposed to shallow and filled with nightmares like they are now i feel like im rotting from the inside out or something