a rather superficial and materialistic entry
all these years i have never seen / felt a need to own a luxury branded handbag. it was always a want but never a need. i would be able to control my feelings when i chance upon something that catches my mind. i'll absorb the horrible feeling and then realised i dont need it badly and i'll try and to let go off the feelings. it always work.
my first ever branded bag bought specially for me was the multicolor LV bag huge speedy. i have no idea why i was so crazy about that bag at that time. it was such a easy bag to be dirtied. it was 3k plus and the best thing was, it's made out of friggin canvas. not even leather. i didnt bear to use it much as i was afraid the white canvas would be dirtied. the bag has been collecting dust for years. it doesnt seem fashionable now but rather matured.
it seems like most girl our age would want a chanel classic for their very first bag. i tried so hard to persuade my mum to buy that for me but she was never willing to spend so much on a bag even for herself. i researched on how it would be an investment piece and repeated to her everynight. since she was on a holiday at europe at that time, she decided to buy it for me. a dream came true. the feeling of opening the black box and touching the softest lamb skin was priceless. i hardly use it anyway cause the skin is too delicate and being such a clumsy person i am, the delicate lamb skin isnt at the best state tho i rarely used it. :( owning one chanel was a dream come true and i have no other interest in any other bags. (for the longest period ever)
then i got so crazy over miu miu bags. i waited for years to own the classic coffer bag. right now, miu miu doesnt tempt me anymore causeeeeeee i found out of the brand balenciaga. the smartest designer of all, i must say. all he has to do is think of a design, change the studs and play with colours and every colour will definately be a sell out as everyone in the world has different colour preferences. when the motocycle bags were fashionable, i didnt like it at all. it looks cheap too me somehow. it's amazing how pop out studs change the whole look of the bag in an instance. my brother's gf was collecting the bags of different colours and all i could was stare in envy. i was pretty strong to be able to comfort myself for years that it's not a need in life. its just another bag.
i hate to admit it. but im wrong. year after year, season after season. i miss my dream colours. i didnt know that once the season is gone, you can hardly find that colour ever again. i feel like kicking myself hard every time i fail in finding my dream colour - turquoise or amethyst or anything in gold studs. how the hell would i know they would discontinued gold studs forever!
last christmas, my bro and his gf decided to get me a present cum 21st bday present. yea, a balenciaga bag. after opening their present, ekka on the other hand bought me another balenciaga bag for xmas cum 21st bday present. 2 big surprises i'd last xmas. its funny how i dont even wana look at ppl on the streets with their chanel bags cus its such a common bag and with lots of inspired ones around. but a anyone carrying a balenciaga bag makes my eyes go POP POP POP! cus i keep seeing a nicer or unique colour. and i go shit! i like that colour more than mine! dammit.
i searched the whole of barneys in NY, Las Vegas, Bkk, Singapore etc just to find the turquoise/amethyst gold studs bag and it came to a point where i accepted the fact i can never ever own it. untill last week when i was in BKK, maki bombed my hp when she was in paris for 3 days. she told me the colour code and to make a decision immediately. i didnt have any internet with me and i was panicking and panicking, i rushed out with a cab all alone at midnight looking for an internet cafe. the guy at the lobby told my cab driver and sent me to frigging patpong where all the thai pussy shows are. i was freaking out as it was such a dodgy place. i called ekka immediately and he was very very angry with me that i actually risk my life just for a bag tho he knows how much i want it badly. i felt that it was such a crisis that nobody would understand cause i went through so much pain just to find this dream colour of mine.
yesterday on the way home, guan min bbm me telling me there's a royal blue bb bag on sale and she kept tempting me making me so cruious i sped all the way home just to check the links she was sending me. i surf the whole of purse forum the entire night admiring everyone's collection. and to start off the day, as i was visiting the dentist with my mum, i bumbed into a girl carrying my dream amethyst bag. i never thought i would actually see it live other than purseforum. i even stop to talk to her so that she'll let me have a closer look.
today, my cousin bbm me over from HK for the latest arrival of chanel that came in today which was in royal blue. holycow! i have never ever seen a royal blue chanel in my life. i have no intentions getting it as i cant afford it with my frigging salary and having no allowances anymore. besides, that limited ed bag adds up to 2 bb bags! ekka just woke up and told me that if i dont get it now, i will regret for lifeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.apparently its for VIPS only and they only have 2 pieces. i cant believe he's encouraging me to buy it now tho im totally flat ass broke!! however, i dont see a need why i should get another blue bag when i own a royal blue marc jacobs bag and an upcoming turquoise bag! (cant wait cant waittttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt cant friggin wait)
i spent 1.5k in bangkok with my own money. gotta work another 3 months to clear off my debt for an incoming bb bag and i need a few more countless months to be able to cover this new chanel bag if i were to get it. decisions by the time i wake up which would be in a few hours.
ok, this was a rather superficial and materialistic entry. and totally a waste of your time if you bothered to read it. i just cant believe how bags have taken over my life in this 2 weeks. i really wish money wasnt a problem for me. but then again, chanel and balenciaga shouldnt be my needs in life. Though honestly, i personally feel that if you own one bb bag, you might be another obsessed victim like me. just surf purseforum n take a look at everyone's huge ass collections. This entry wasn't to show off what I have but just a conclusion to myself of what I might be turning into! Cus in my whole entire life till now, I'm the most budget person when it comes to fashion. I don't buy labels cus fashion comes n go so fast but now my perception of bags r different. Even ekka jus told me it can be an investment piece and sell it on ebay eventually. Lol. goodnight bag lovers out there.
my first ever branded bag bought specially for me was the multicolor LV bag huge speedy. i have no idea why i was so crazy about that bag at that time. it was such a easy bag to be dirtied. it was 3k plus and the best thing was, it's made out of friggin canvas. not even leather. i didnt bear to use it much as i was afraid the white canvas would be dirtied. the bag has been collecting dust for years. it doesnt seem fashionable now but rather matured.
it seems like most girl our age would want a chanel classic for their very first bag. i tried so hard to persuade my mum to buy that for me but she was never willing to spend so much on a bag even for herself. i researched on how it would be an investment piece and repeated to her everynight. since she was on a holiday at europe at that time, she decided to buy it for me. a dream came true. the feeling of opening the black box and touching the softest lamb skin was priceless. i hardly use it anyway cause the skin is too delicate and being such a clumsy person i am, the delicate lamb skin isnt at the best state tho i rarely used it. :( owning one chanel was a dream come true and i have no other interest in any other bags. (for the longest period ever)
then i got so crazy over miu miu bags. i waited for years to own the classic coffer bag. right now, miu miu doesnt tempt me anymore causeeeeeee i found out of the brand balenciaga. the smartest designer of all, i must say. all he has to do is think of a design, change the studs and play with colours and every colour will definately be a sell out as everyone in the world has different colour preferences. when the motocycle bags were fashionable, i didnt like it at all. it looks cheap too me somehow. it's amazing how pop out studs change the whole look of the bag in an instance. my brother's gf was collecting the bags of different colours and all i could was stare in envy. i was pretty strong to be able to comfort myself for years that it's not a need in life. its just another bag.
i hate to admit it. but im wrong. year after year, season after season. i miss my dream colours. i didnt know that once the season is gone, you can hardly find that colour ever again. i feel like kicking myself hard every time i fail in finding my dream colour - turquoise or amethyst or anything in gold studs. how the hell would i know they would discontinued gold studs forever!
last christmas, my bro and his gf decided to get me a present cum 21st bday present. yea, a balenciaga bag. after opening their present, ekka on the other hand bought me another balenciaga bag for xmas cum 21st bday present. 2 big surprises i'd last xmas. its funny how i dont even wana look at ppl on the streets with their chanel bags cus its such a common bag and with lots of inspired ones around. but a anyone carrying a balenciaga bag makes my eyes go POP POP POP! cus i keep seeing a nicer or unique colour. and i go shit! i like that colour more than mine! dammit.
i searched the whole of barneys in NY, Las Vegas, Bkk, Singapore etc just to find the turquoise/amethyst gold studs bag and it came to a point where i accepted the fact i can never ever own it. untill last week when i was in BKK, maki bombed my hp when she was in paris for 3 days. she told me the colour code and to make a decision immediately. i didnt have any internet with me and i was panicking and panicking, i rushed out with a cab all alone at midnight looking for an internet cafe. the guy at the lobby told my cab driver and sent me to frigging patpong where all the thai pussy shows are. i was freaking out as it was such a dodgy place. i called ekka immediately and he was very very angry with me that i actually risk my life just for a bag tho he knows how much i want it badly. i felt that it was such a crisis that nobody would understand cause i went through so much pain just to find this dream colour of mine.
yesterday on the way home, guan min bbm me telling me there's a royal blue bb bag on sale and she kept tempting me making me so cruious i sped all the way home just to check the links she was sending me. i surf the whole of purse forum the entire night admiring everyone's collection. and to start off the day, as i was visiting the dentist with my mum, i bumbed into a girl carrying my dream amethyst bag. i never thought i would actually see it live other than purseforum. i even stop to talk to her so that she'll let me have a closer look.
today, my cousin bbm me over from HK for the latest arrival of chanel that came in today which was in royal blue. holycow! i have never ever seen a royal blue chanel in my life. i have no intentions getting it as i cant afford it with my frigging salary and having no allowances anymore. besides, that limited ed bag adds up to 2 bb bags! ekka just woke up and told me that if i dont get it now, i will regret for lifeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.apparently its for VIPS only and they only have 2 pieces. i cant believe he's encouraging me to buy it now tho im totally flat ass broke!! however, i dont see a need why i should get another blue bag when i own a royal blue marc jacobs bag and an upcoming turquoise bag! (cant wait cant waittttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt cant friggin wait)
i spent 1.5k in bangkok with my own money. gotta work another 3 months to clear off my debt for an incoming bb bag and i need a few more countless months to be able to cover this new chanel bag if i were to get it. decisions by the time i wake up which would be in a few hours.
ok, this was a rather superficial and materialistic entry. and totally a waste of your time if you bothered to read it. i just cant believe how bags have taken over my life in this 2 weeks. i really wish money wasnt a problem for me. but then again, chanel and balenciaga shouldnt be my needs in life. Though honestly, i personally feel that if you own one bb bag, you might be another obsessed victim like me. just surf purseforum n take a look at everyone's huge ass collections. This entry wasn't to show off what I have but just a conclusion to myself of what I might be turning into! Cus in my whole entire life till now, I'm the most budget person when it comes to fashion. I don't buy labels cus fashion comes n go so fast but now my perception of bags r different. Even ekka jus told me it can be an investment piece and sell it on ebay eventually. Lol. goodnight bag lovers out there.