Sick Day.
Well today has been a two day week of school for me :] I am sick today and tomorrow I don't have school because of a teacher in-service day. And plus that lovely unexpected snow day on Tuesday. It was about time!
Eughhh. My tummy feels so gross >.< and I still have to babysit tonight. 3 little kids and Hannah Montanna is EXACTLY how I want to spend the rest of my day. Well maybe if I made more than $20 from it...
Soo everyone thinks that dating someone in a band is like the coolest thing ever right?
Too bad you're wrong. Maybe if I wasn't such a jealous person and think that certain things are mine; like my dreams etc., then I wouldn't have such a problem with it? I'm just afraid he won't be mine anymore and that the music will carry him to places that I can't follow. II swear all this worrying is why my stomach is always in knots.
How am I supposed to be happy when significant other is doing everything I dreamed of while I sit here and deal with normal life? You'll say "If you really love someone you will support them." BULLSHIT. It's human nature and it's part of the way your freaking brain works. Take Psychology maybe? I know I don't want to feel the way I do, I can still be happy for him, but that doesn't mean I'll be happy for myself too. Life sucks that way though. I want to do something in music when I'm older and he wants to become a graphic designer. And the funny thing is he gets noticed more for his music and I get noticed more for my graphic design/photo editing. So wtf?
One time last year when I was in art this one girl told me that after the 2 year mark in a relationship it kind of just dies and you realize you just want to have fun. That sentence has stuck with me for awhile but now after dating Tony for over 2 years I feel completely fine. I feel happier, if that's possible. Maybe I should just listen to what my heart says and not worry about what has happened to other people's relationships. I mean, if anyone, I would know it best right? And while everyone is blabbing about soul mates and how there is only one, I'll tell you what I think about that. I think someone made up the word to be completely honest. I think that there isn't just one person for you...otherwise you would have to like, travel the world right? Well maybe we have a lot of soulmates. We just connect with them at different levels. I just got lucky and found one that I connect with at a very high level. I plan on sticking with him though ;] Love is a marvelous thing and it keeps me going.
Well I'm off. I'm should go practice my guitar since I'm recording new/ re-recording songs on sunday.
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Picture of the day:
Thats my best friend Lauren (the one to the right) ^_^. Lauren you died in my dream last night (but then I called you and you came back to life lol) just don't do it again but it scared me. haha
Eughhh. My tummy feels so gross >.< and I still have to babysit tonight. 3 little kids and Hannah Montanna is EXACTLY how I want to spend the rest of my day. Well maybe if I made more than $20 from it...
Soo everyone thinks that dating someone in a band is like the coolest thing ever right?
Too bad you're wrong. Maybe if I wasn't such a jealous person and think that certain things are mine; like my dreams etc., then I wouldn't have such a problem with it? I'm just afraid he won't be mine anymore and that the music will carry him to places that I can't follow. II swear all this worrying is why my stomach is always in knots.
How am I supposed to be happy when significant other is doing everything I dreamed of while I sit here and deal with normal life? You'll say "If you really love someone you will support them." BULLSHIT. It's human nature and it's part of the way your freaking brain works. Take Psychology maybe? I know I don't want to feel the way I do, I can still be happy for him, but that doesn't mean I'll be happy for myself too. Life sucks that way though. I want to do something in music when I'm older and he wants to become a graphic designer. And the funny thing is he gets noticed more for his music and I get noticed more for my graphic design/photo editing. So wtf?
One time last year when I was in art this one girl told me that after the 2 year mark in a relationship it kind of just dies and you realize you just want to have fun. That sentence has stuck with me for awhile but now after dating Tony for over 2 years I feel completely fine. I feel happier, if that's possible. Maybe I should just listen to what my heart says and not worry about what has happened to other people's relationships. I mean, if anyone, I would know it best right? And while everyone is blabbing about soul mates and how there is only one, I'll tell you what I think about that. I think someone made up the word to be completely honest. I think that there isn't just one person for you...otherwise you would have to like, travel the world right? Well maybe we have a lot of soulmates. We just connect with them at different levels. I just got lucky and found one that I connect with at a very high level. I plan on sticking with him though ;] Love is a marvelous thing and it keeps me going.
Well I'm off. I'm should go practice my guitar since I'm recording new/ re-recording songs on sunday.
add my personal myspace: www.myspace.com/xpeacock_skeletonx
add my music myspace: www.myspace.com/xthetruthaboutforever
Picture of the day:
Thats my best friend Lauren (the one to the right) ^_^. Lauren you died in my dream last night (but then I called you and you came back to life lol) just don't do it again but it scared me. haha