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its kind of funny how one day ur really happy than out of no where you get really depressed for no reason at all. My mood swings came back yesturday. the only time i really did feel happy and didnt fake it was when the bands played and i met wil from aiden. and a little bit at dennys with victoria sarah and mark.
i am starting a real journal, writing down my true feelings so i try and pin point what is wrong and eliminate them. here's what i wrote about how the used make me feel: "it is kind of funny how through the 5 or 6 years i have been listening to the used and how much i have matured, the way i interperupt their songs, i can relate and seek comfort in them. Eventhough they got real popular over the years, I can still connect with them on that deeper level. Nothing will ever change that. when i dont feel alive, they make me. They are proof that music is the best therapy by far. Yes i did tear up really bad when they did the "taste of ink, all that i've got, and buried myself alive" medoly. Those three songs have a big impact on my life as of right now. taste of ink: i am sick of milwaukee and i am sick of the same routine everyday. I want to expirence something new, that is why i am thankful for oshkosh.I believe that this will be a positive impact on me, future and emotional wise.
All that I've got: "I can laugh all I want, inside i am empty." kind of self explainatory. sometimes i put up a front when i am down
Buried myself alive: I way i take in the song, it seems like slowly I am shutting out all my friends for no reason. I dont like it and i want it to chand but idk how.
so basically some of you wont hear from me until the 31st, i am doing it purposley, but i think its for the best, I am going to do some self evaluation and get better.
i am starting a real journal, writing down my true feelings so i try and pin point what is wrong and eliminate them. here's what i wrote about how the used make me feel: "it is kind of funny how through the 5 or 6 years i have been listening to the used and how much i have matured, the way i interperupt their songs, i can relate and seek comfort in them. Eventhough they got real popular over the years, I can still connect with them on that deeper level. Nothing will ever change that. when i dont feel alive, they make me. They are proof that music is the best therapy by far. Yes i did tear up really bad when they did the "taste of ink, all that i've got, and buried myself alive" medoly. Those three songs have a big impact on my life as of right now. taste of ink: i am sick of milwaukee and i am sick of the same routine everyday. I want to expirence something new, that is why i am thankful for oshkosh.I believe that this will be a positive impact on me, future and emotional wise.
All that I've got: "I can laugh all I want, inside i am empty." kind of self explainatory. sometimes i put up a front when i am down
Buried myself alive: I way i take in the song, it seems like slowly I am shutting out all my friends for no reason. I dont like it and i want it to chand but idk how.
so basically some of you wont hear from me until the 31st, i am doing it purposley, but i think its for the best, I am going to do some self evaluation and get better.