Trauma
I started the new year with a big bang. No, seriously, a big bang. A bad kind of big bang. I think it's going to affect me for a while. 2008 has been really rough around the edges and also on the surfaces. I've apologized countless times that the word (SORRY!) doesn't mean anything at all. Sometimes i think i'm just simply saying it. I got even with my dad countless times too, for no reason at all. I just don't get it. What does he wants from me? What does everyone wants from me? Sometimes my mom.. yeah you get my point right? Like yesterday night for example. What a great start to the new year. I couldn't believe she would ever do that to me. How could you? I don't think i'll be able to get over that one. It's also kind of sad when i start to get my boyfriend involved. He's not even to be blamed. Sometimes it strucks me when he asked me why am i shouting at him. Another year, another drama. When will this ever stop. Dad, you can forget about having a happy family. It ain't gonna happen. I'm going to turn 20 which mean that i'll be out the door soon before you know it. I'll be miles away on the other end of the planet that you can forget about me coming down during the festive seasons or public holidays. I think it's best if you live your life and i live mine. I have always looking forward to this. This is the only way i can take. Mom, i'll still love you and send you money. Enough money for you and dad. Thanks for everything.
Well I'm not leaving when i'm 20. This is just something which i think i can come up with when the time is right. Whatever it is, i still meant what i said.
Well I'm not leaving when i'm 20. This is just something which i think i can come up with when the time is right. Whatever it is, i still meant what i said.