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Here it is as simple as I can make it.
I miss you. I miss opening the door for you when you're late. I miss you looking like Thurston Moore with your sunglasses on. I miss watching animal planet first thing in the morning while you cut lemons. I miss watching you eat fruity pebbles and drinking that gross powder coffee stuff while I drank hot chocolate and smoked 100's in the bar with you. I miss you pulling me down aisles to point out little asian girls to me. I miss hiding with you and watching them eat spaghetti. I miss those 30 minute periods before lunch where we would talk about cats and you would plan my future out for me, at least your version of it. I miss you putting your arms around me and calling me "little nose". I miss how you used to make me so uncomfortable when we first met. I miss how you made everyone uncomfortable. I miss giving up on work to eat grilled cheese and tomato sandwiches in the back room and talk about girls with you. I miss laughing about murder. I miss watching cartoons and cspan. I miss your red shirt because I always think justin is you but he never is. I miss you leaving me all alone to work by myself everyday for 15 minutes while you did drungs in the parking lot. I miss seeing you so fucked up that you couldnt open your eyes and had to be sent home. I miss communicating through meows. I miss sharing pictures with you. I miss you pulling scams to cover for me all the time. I miss you and I getting into fights and you telling me no wonder my boyfriend dumped me and me screaming at you that your life is shit and then that silence and then us laughing because we know its all true and we dont care. I miss seeing you happy. I miss seeing you so sad. I miss watching you dig through the ceiling tiles to find all the weird shit you hide up there. I miss you telling me that im not just another girl. I miss you trying to make me have sex with steve because we were single. I miss you getting excited about the boys i smooched and making me promise to call you after work to tell you what happened and if they called or not. I miss you cutting out comics that made you think of me in the sunday newspaper. I miss sunday mornings with you, both of us so fucked up all the time. I miss you giving me drugs around corners and turning me onto getting so fucking high all the time. I miss how much everyone loved you. I miss your fucked up life. The whole fucking lot of it. I miss wishing I could rescue such a case of heartbroken despair that you were. I miss wishing that I would know you forever. I miss you getting in trouble with your girl for driving me home from work. I miss you caring about me. I miss you holding lightbulbs above my head and waiting for my face to change. I miss your counter reaction face that came when I made my pouty face.
I miss you. I miss you more than I ever thought I could. I miss every single thing about you not being in my life anymore. Most of all I miss that I will never see you again and that things got so sad for you. But missing doesn't bring you back. So thank you for every single smile you have brought to my mostly bummed out face. and you would be happy to know that now when I think of you I don't have to cry anymore. Because i don't know sad things of you.
goodbye baby. I will see you tomorrow and I will say goodnight and don't be surprised if you take a sliver of my heart 6 feet under with you to chew on the roots of dandilions. i love you and i miss you and i will never....never....forget you as long as I live. oh how you make my heart ache.
I miss you. I miss opening the door for you when you're late. I miss you looking like Thurston Moore with your sunglasses on. I miss watching animal planet first thing in the morning while you cut lemons. I miss watching you eat fruity pebbles and drinking that gross powder coffee stuff while I drank hot chocolate and smoked 100's in the bar with you. I miss you pulling me down aisles to point out little asian girls to me. I miss hiding with you and watching them eat spaghetti. I miss those 30 minute periods before lunch where we would talk about cats and you would plan my future out for me, at least your version of it. I miss you putting your arms around me and calling me "little nose". I miss how you used to make me so uncomfortable when we first met. I miss how you made everyone uncomfortable. I miss giving up on work to eat grilled cheese and tomato sandwiches in the back room and talk about girls with you. I miss laughing about murder. I miss watching cartoons and cspan. I miss your red shirt because I always think justin is you but he never is. I miss you leaving me all alone to work by myself everyday for 15 minutes while you did drungs in the parking lot. I miss seeing you so fucked up that you couldnt open your eyes and had to be sent home. I miss communicating through meows. I miss sharing pictures with you. I miss you pulling scams to cover for me all the time. I miss you and I getting into fights and you telling me no wonder my boyfriend dumped me and me screaming at you that your life is shit and then that silence and then us laughing because we know its all true and we dont care. I miss seeing you happy. I miss seeing you so sad. I miss watching you dig through the ceiling tiles to find all the weird shit you hide up there. I miss you telling me that im not just another girl. I miss you trying to make me have sex with steve because we were single. I miss you getting excited about the boys i smooched and making me promise to call you after work to tell you what happened and if they called or not. I miss you cutting out comics that made you think of me in the sunday newspaper. I miss sunday mornings with you, both of us so fucked up all the time. I miss you giving me drugs around corners and turning me onto getting so fucking high all the time. I miss how much everyone loved you. I miss your fucked up life. The whole fucking lot of it. I miss wishing I could rescue such a case of heartbroken despair that you were. I miss wishing that I would know you forever. I miss you getting in trouble with your girl for driving me home from work. I miss you caring about me. I miss you holding lightbulbs above my head and waiting for my face to change. I miss your counter reaction face that came when I made my pouty face.
I miss you. I miss you more than I ever thought I could. I miss every single thing about you not being in my life anymore. Most of all I miss that I will never see you again and that things got so sad for you. But missing doesn't bring you back. So thank you for every single smile you have brought to my mostly bummed out face. and you would be happy to know that now when I think of you I don't have to cry anymore. Because i don't know sad things of you.
goodbye baby. I will see you tomorrow and I will say goodnight and don't be surprised if you take a sliver of my heart 6 feet under with you to chew on the roots of dandilions. i love you and i miss you and i will never....never....forget you as long as I live. oh how you make my heart ache.