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[ohdangitsmegan]

oh golly. i haven't used this thing in forever. so everything is going well right now. i love school so much more than i thought i would. it's just so nice to be sort of be on my own, and have my own schedule. i like my schedule, it's going well. i just wish that i was working more. i only have like nine hours a week. hopefully next week i'll have more, we'll see if bill realizes that i need more money than that, haha. i really should just get a new job, but i don't have the motivation to quit. i met with my advisor today and decided what classes i'm taking next semester. i'm taking developmental psych, stats, stats lab, english comp 2, and intermediate spanish 2. the good news is that after next semester i'll be done with my language. taking it in high school really payed off. i'm nervous for stats. like i've heard good and bad things about it. i'm sooo good at algebra, that's my prime. any other form of math, i'm not so good with, lol. well besides school all is pretty well. i've been hanging out with matt a lot, it's going well. i'm glad that we finally were honest with each other and ourselves. we've been friends for two years and now we're starting to become more, it's good. and this year has really made me realize who's important and who's not. i've really learned that some people just aren't necessary in my life. you can't try to force a friendship, especially in college. there are people that i wish i could've continued to be friends with, but it's just not possible. i hung out with this guy, and it was going well. then we just stopped talking, even though we have class together three days a week, and sit next to each other. we've done this three times, like where we wouldn't talk and then we'd make up and be okay. now he won't even speak to me. he'll text me to tell me that he misses me or something, and that he wants to spend time with me, and then nothing. as much as i wish things could be different, i've realized that they won't change. and that i just need to accept that, and move on. i have bigger and better things ahead of me, i don't need to get caught up in the games. a girl who i went to highschool with is apparently talking about me to one of my friends because she's jealous that i'm hanging out with that friend. it's really petty. i wish everybody could grow up and realize that we're past all that. i've been hanging out with diana mae a lot lately. i love that girl to death. she's so funny, and she's so much fun to be around. i was having a really bad night friday and she came and rescued me and took me to a party. what a friend. =D i just wish she didn't hurt her ankle! we were supposed to go out saturday, but she like twisted her ankle, poor boo. =[ we're going out this saturday though, so it's all good. this wednesday is boo at the roo, i'm going with kate. it's gonna be great. i loved dressing up for her party, so halloween is gonna be so fun! kate's such a doll. =] i think thursday me and kimmyboo are gonna hang out, i'm excited. i'm gonna see if we can go to the mall, i need to get dawn's birthday present. i hope i can find what i'm looking for. hopefully i get to hang out with matt this week too. it's been like a week or so, bummer. i'm really happy, because i had three papers to write and they're all done. they're due tuesday, wednesday, and thursday and i'm done with them all. it's such a weight lifted. and my spanish midterm is out of the way, thank god. i hope i did as well as i did on the first test we had. i'm doing really well in school, like i'm getting much better grades than i anticipated lol. life is just good right now. i mean there are a few things that i could let bring me down, i was fighting a lot with my parents a while ago and between having a lot of hw and issues with folks, i could get all upset about it. but i've just decided that it's my life, and i control my happiness. i just need to brush things off. just say "fuck it" and feel how i want to feel. alrighty, well i'm gonna go. i've got class at six. i'm gonna lay around for a little bit, and then go to starbucks and get some hot chocolate before class. adios! =]

ps - who watched the series? i'm sooo depressed. the indians were doing so well, and then boom red sox beats them, goes to the series, and wins. HATE them.