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[ohdangitsmegan]

okay, so a lot has happened lately. well, let's see. first i took the easter basket back to my dad. he called my mom and told her that he understands that i'm done with him, but he doesn't want me to talk to austin about anything and change thier relationship. he, in a nutshell, called child services and told them to call and tell me not to mention anything that's happened to austin. then i found out, there's a possibility that he's not my father. so my head has been spinning lately. i've cried for the past four days. today i talked to mrs.gilbert and she thinks that i need to get into counseling. i agree. i mean, i think with everything going on it's really hard to handle it all on my own. i need to talk to someone who's not involved and get advice on how to handle everything, because i certainly can't do this on my own. thank god for everybody else in my life. if it weren't for my friends and family, i don't know what i would do. yesterday was aaron and i's one month. we're doing good. he frustrates me sometimes becuase he says he'll call and then he doesn't. i HATE confrentation though, so i haven't said anything. i mean monday through thursday is when it's hard, because he works, and i don't work monday or tuesday. he says he'll call me and then he doesn't if he's been at work until late. we talked tonight and he said that he's going to call me tomorrow. if he doesn't, we're going to have a talk. we're supposed to hang out this weekend tomorrow if he gets off work early and over the weekend, so we'll see what happens. okay well i'm going to go. i should get to bed. i have school and work and HUDDLE tomorrow. oh and on my lunch break i'm going to get a birth control shot, haha. i'm nervous. i hate shots. okay, goodnight.

ps - my birthday is on the 25th. i'm SO excited. =D