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so this weekend was pretty good. friday i worked, came home, and went to bed. saturday i didn't really do anything during the day, and i worked at night. then i went to dawn's for a while and we watched saw 3. i actually liked it, lol. sunday britni called off so i came in and worked. that was, well, interesting. but i'll get to that in a minute. then sunday night i slept over at dawns. we went to papa johns and got cheese sticks from dee. it was good to see her. i wish we could've hung out more. today dawn and i got up and made donuts. yuummm. then we got ready and went to pick up my brother. we took him to the dentist and then went to target. dawn bought a quilt and did a dance over it. pretty amazing. =] we just ate dinner and now we're finish up rasie your voice.
so my head is going back and forth over some things. matt has sort of decided to take back what he said about not dating a girl he works with. he was all over me at work and he kept holding onto me and saying to sean "this one's myne." it's like, why now? why when i decide to move on does he pull me back in? i've been talking to this other guy lately and he basically asked me to hang out sometime. so i'm stuck in this place where i don't know what to do. i like matt, but i don't think he knows what he wants. i know he likes me, but i don't know what he wants. i like this other guy too, but i'm not sure if things will keep moving forward. i just wish that things could be cut and dry. i wish that i wasn't stuck waiting for people to make up thier minds. i guess i'll just have to take each day one at a time and see what happens.
and i'm really frustrated with my parents. i'm just, tired. i feel like they don't want me around. and like my dad is talking to my mom and trying to make it seem like he cares again, but i don't trust him. i don't believe what he's saying. and everytime i try and talk to my mom about things she makes me feel like what i'm saing isn't worth her time. she's just hurt me a lot lately with some things she's told me. i just don't know what to do. my mind is spinning in so many different directions. i feel like as soon as something good happens and things are going right, something goes wrong. i'm not sure what to do or what to think. i don't know what will happen. i just hope things start going right again, and everything gets resolved. who knows if that will happen.
so my head is going back and forth over some things. matt has sort of decided to take back what he said about not dating a girl he works with. he was all over me at work and he kept holding onto me and saying to sean "this one's myne." it's like, why now? why when i decide to move on does he pull me back in? i've been talking to this other guy lately and he basically asked me to hang out sometime. so i'm stuck in this place where i don't know what to do. i like matt, but i don't think he knows what he wants. i know he likes me, but i don't know what he wants. i like this other guy too, but i'm not sure if things will keep moving forward. i just wish that things could be cut and dry. i wish that i wasn't stuck waiting for people to make up thier minds. i guess i'll just have to take each day one at a time and see what happens.
and i'm really frustrated with my parents. i'm just, tired. i feel like they don't want me around. and like my dad is talking to my mom and trying to make it seem like he cares again, but i don't trust him. i don't believe what he's saying. and everytime i try and talk to my mom about things she makes me feel like what i'm saing isn't worth her time. she's just hurt me a lot lately with some things she's told me. i just don't know what to do. my mind is spinning in so many different directions. i feel like as soon as something good happens and things are going right, something goes wrong. i'm not sure what to do or what to think. i don't know what will happen. i just hope things start going right again, and everything gets resolved. who knows if that will happen.