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[ohbabymhm_x]

So, in the movie Because I Said So, there's the scene where the guy Mandy Moore ends up with tells her that off days happen. They'll have good days, and they'll have bad days, but it doesn't change anything...

Is that allowed to happen if I'm the only one falling? Do we still have off days?
Or is the worst case scenario that I'm thinking really happening?
I know I overthink things. And I know I assume the worst and that it usually isn't true...
But that knowledge does not kill the fear inside of me.

Please don't be falling in love with her.
I'm perfect for you. You're perfect for me.
I need you in my life.
I love you.

I'm miserable when you're not around, and I'm miserable when you are.
I just want you, entire.
And I can't have you.
And everything is a reminder.

Why are you still with her?
Why can't you love me the way I love you?
Why won't you let me love you?

This is just all so fucked.
Everything has twisted around.
And you have so much power over me. And so much control.
And to be honest, I don't even mind. I just want you to be aware.
Be conscious of the fact that you're hurting me.
Don't feel bad about it. It's not that it can necessarily be helped.
Just, be aware.