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I'm sitting here in horrible pain because of getting my wisdom teeth out. I haven't moved in a couple hours and mommy is keeping me full on soup, pudding, and go-gurt. I can't drink anything through a straw and I havent had a cigarette all day, and can't have one for 48 hours, so I'm going to be really pissy for a while.
I'm watching Rent, also, but I don't really get what's going on, and some girl just mooned me. And the movie has French subtitles, even though the subtitles are shut off on my TV. I don't get it.
Now I'm thirsty. And on 3 different medications. And I wish I could chew something cuz I really want french fries.
So, what else? Oh, I might be seeing Stephen on Friday. Hopefully, just because it's important that I meet him and realize that he's a real person. I'm not looking for a relationship out of him. I'm not looking for him to change his mind and be with me when he's going out of state for college next year and i'm not even sure that i'll be in college next year. it's just that i need to see him, and make sure he's real. it's just going to be crazy because i talked to him for over a year and never met him. What is my deal?
Nick just called me. He didn't know I got my wisdom teeth out, and he wanted me to go out with him tonight, but I clearly cannot. It was nice of him to call me and see how I'm doing, although I've actually never been happier since he's not a part of my life anymore. It's just weird that I had 3 missed calls from him on New Years Eve at exactly midnight. It makes me wonder why out of everyone he was with , and all his friends, why he wanted to call me when the ball dropped?
I'm miserable. And really emotional for some reason. It's horrific. A lot of people are being really nice to me lately and it seems genuine, and i hope its genuine. It just shows a lot of character from those people, that no matter what's been said between us we can all just grow up and talk and be civil to each other. It shows maturity.
OK i'm going to lie down for now.
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I'm watching Rent, also, but I don't really get what's going on, and some girl just mooned me. And the movie has French subtitles, even though the subtitles are shut off on my TV. I don't get it.
Now I'm thirsty. And on 3 different medications. And I wish I could chew something cuz I really want french fries.
So, what else? Oh, I might be seeing Stephen on Friday. Hopefully, just because it's important that I meet him and realize that he's a real person. I'm not looking for a relationship out of him. I'm not looking for him to change his mind and be with me when he's going out of state for college next year and i'm not even sure that i'll be in college next year. it's just that i need to see him, and make sure he's real. it's just going to be crazy because i talked to him for over a year and never met him. What is my deal?
Nick just called me. He didn't know I got my wisdom teeth out, and he wanted me to go out with him tonight, but I clearly cannot. It was nice of him to call me and see how I'm doing, although I've actually never been happier since he's not a part of my life anymore. It's just weird that I had 3 missed calls from him on New Years Eve at exactly midnight. It makes me wonder why out of everyone he was with , and all his friends, why he wanted to call me when the ball dropped?
I'm miserable. And really emotional for some reason. It's horrific. A lot of people are being really nice to me lately and it seems genuine, and i hope its genuine. It just shows a lot of character from those people, that no matter what's been said between us we can all just grow up and talk and be civil to each other. It shows maturity.
OK i'm going to lie down for now.
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