Left & Leaving.
Its weird to look back at yourself.
To cut yourself into the tiny pieces that make up who you are.
The pieces you call "Me"
It is a weird thing when you take all of those things.
Lay them out like pictures in a collage.
step back
and find out who you really were and are.
The smiling faces of friends you have lost.
Not lost due to anything they said or did.
But lost to distance.
This being said I really miss Mike...
I have never said that out loud.
I have never told him...
Maybe I should have.
Mike was with me...through everything. We grew up together, not in the sense that we knew each other from when we were in diapers, but we grew up when you really grow up.
Those first steps in Junior High. Scared..Shaking like a leaf.
We were both the same way.
Somehow we found each other through the shuffle and found ourselves in another person.
Most of you wont agree with that.
But Mike and I were not polar opposites as has been perceived by most.
Those years that we were friends. Were the best times of my life.
Even out senior year. Which was filled with a lot of fights and hellish days.
I watched him fall in love.
Fall out of Love
We were there for every moment missed by family members.
To laugh at the things no one else understood.
To be each others best friends.
He was still my best friend. The person that I could always count on.
It doesn't hit you right away. When you lose someone that you truly care about, it sort of needs time to settle.
When you realize they aren't a phone call away...
Its difficult.
You never really know what you have until its gone.
He was a lot of what made me.
And I was a lot of what made him.
But I think I am more lost without him...than I like to believe.
He will be my best friend till the day we die.
Laying out the pieces of yourself is a tough thing to do.
Sometimes you don't want to know exactly what makes up who you are.
But for me I realized its my friends.
The people who will be there forever.
The people who matter.
And I love every single one of you for shaping the man I have become.
-chris
To cut yourself into the tiny pieces that make up who you are.
The pieces you call "Me"
It is a weird thing when you take all of those things.
Lay them out like pictures in a collage.
step back
and find out who you really were and are.
The smiling faces of friends you have lost.
Not lost due to anything they said or did.
But lost to distance.
This being said I really miss Mike...
I have never said that out loud.
I have never told him...
Maybe I should have.
Mike was with me...through everything. We grew up together, not in the sense that we knew each other from when we were in diapers, but we grew up when you really grow up.
Those first steps in Junior High. Scared..Shaking like a leaf.
We were both the same way.
Somehow we found each other through the shuffle and found ourselves in another person.
Most of you wont agree with that.
But Mike and I were not polar opposites as has been perceived by most.
Those years that we were friends. Were the best times of my life.
Even out senior year. Which was filled with a lot of fights and hellish days.
I watched him fall in love.
Fall out of Love
We were there for every moment missed by family members.
To laugh at the things no one else understood.
To be each others best friends.
He was still my best friend. The person that I could always count on.
It doesn't hit you right away. When you lose someone that you truly care about, it sort of needs time to settle.
When you realize they aren't a phone call away...
Its difficult.
You never really know what you have until its gone.
He was a lot of what made me.
And I was a lot of what made him.
But I think I am more lost without him...than I like to believe.
He will be my best friend till the day we die.
Laying out the pieces of yourself is a tough thing to do.
Sometimes you don't want to know exactly what makes up who you are.
But for me I realized its my friends.
The people who will be there forever.
The people who matter.
And I love every single one of you for shaping the man I have become.
-chris