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I was thinking that I could add a little spice in my life by looking back at where I was a year ago today and commenting on it. Well, I didn't have anything written for the 11th so I'll go by the 10th. Turns out, it was something significant, too.
One of our usual fights and it was leading toward us having a break in the relationship. What's ironic about that entire entry was the circumstances that caused our troubles. We were engaged, the wedding was a few months from then... October 25th to be exact.... and I had wanted to move the date up, but Shane was against it. He wasn't ready. That's when everything blew up and I started questioning his love for me, questioning if he wasn't ready to get married at that point then would he be ready to get married ever? Exactly one year later, look at us. We got married after all. It wasn't on October 25th but on May 15th, instead. And in 4 days we'll have been married two months. That's quite an accomplishment.
I'm not saying that I'm surprised about us lasting this long. I would never. I feel proud of myself that I have come this far with him and that we are making this marriage work. We've done it so far for two months now. So we had that one bump in the road recently, but nobody's perfect. That honeymoon feeling doesn't last forever. I'm well aware of that. But we're working through the obstacles. I believe that we made significant strides last night.
What do I say about last night? Nothing felt sweeter than every touch, every kiss concerning him. Some might say we moved a little too fast but I wanted our lives to be back to normal and I know that Shane did, too. Everything felt right and the only thought running through my mind was how much I wanted him... how much I yearned for him. Usually my horniness causes me to become very aggressive when it comes to sex. But last night I could actually feel myself being gentle with him. My body was still aware of the damage I had caused but it was desperate to fix that. I savoured the taste of his mouth, every inch of his body, his flesh, every chance I could, moreso than I had done before. I tried so hard to keep my eyes fixated on his. I didn't want to close them. It almost felt like I was rediscovering him, just like the very first time.
We never really did anything for our one month anniversary, and that's usually a monumental date. That's what I've thought anyway. It seems futile to celebrate a two month anniversary but I wouldn't mind doing something special just to make up for last month. Then after that we won't have to do anything until our one year anniversary. We need something to liven things up since those several days of silence. After all, we both deserve it, especially him.
Come on, Come on, Come on
Get through it
Come on, Come on, Come on
Love's the greatest thing
That we have
One of our usual fights and it was leading toward us having a break in the relationship. What's ironic about that entire entry was the circumstances that caused our troubles. We were engaged, the wedding was a few months from then... October 25th to be exact.... and I had wanted to move the date up, but Shane was against it. He wasn't ready. That's when everything blew up and I started questioning his love for me, questioning if he wasn't ready to get married at that point then would he be ready to get married ever? Exactly one year later, look at us. We got married after all. It wasn't on October 25th but on May 15th, instead. And in 4 days we'll have been married two months. That's quite an accomplishment.
I'm not saying that I'm surprised about us lasting this long. I would never. I feel proud of myself that I have come this far with him and that we are making this marriage work. We've done it so far for two months now. So we had that one bump in the road recently, but nobody's perfect. That honeymoon feeling doesn't last forever. I'm well aware of that. But we're working through the obstacles. I believe that we made significant strides last night.
What do I say about last night? Nothing felt sweeter than every touch, every kiss concerning him. Some might say we moved a little too fast but I wanted our lives to be back to normal and I know that Shane did, too. Everything felt right and the only thought running through my mind was how much I wanted him... how much I yearned for him. Usually my horniness causes me to become very aggressive when it comes to sex. But last night I could actually feel myself being gentle with him. My body was still aware of the damage I had caused but it was desperate to fix that. I savoured the taste of his mouth, every inch of his body, his flesh, every chance I could, moreso than I had done before. I tried so hard to keep my eyes fixated on his. I didn't want to close them. It almost felt like I was rediscovering him, just like the very first time.
We never really did anything for our one month anniversary, and that's usually a monumental date. That's what I've thought anyway. It seems futile to celebrate a two month anniversary but I wouldn't mind doing something special just to make up for last month. Then after that we won't have to do anything until our one year anniversary. We need something to liven things up since those several days of silence. After all, we both deserve it, especially him.
Come on, Come on, Come on
Get through it
Come on, Come on, Come on
Love's the greatest thing
That we have