you are the smell before rain, you are the blood in my veins

[oh_youve_got_it]

I've been on a Brand New kick for the past few days, reminds me of high school and I really have enjoyed it. I've also been drinking coffee, which is fun and all minus the jitters that come with it.

Last week of junior year, finals are next week ... I'm praying for a decent gpa.

I go to France in little under a month. I can't wait. I miss Mike so much, I guess I didn't realize how much of a friend he was to me. I hope things go well, I mean I know the trip will, but in other departments ... fingers crossed.

I bought a bathing suit. I don't fit into it. I am so dissapointed in myself. He has a new girlfriend and it's not that I'm jealous because he is in a facebook offical relationship, it's more the fact that he "won" the relationship race. Don't get me wrong, I've been doing just fine being single, it's actually been really nice, but I think I take care of myself better when I'm in a relationship because I want to make people jealous and without that motivation I've let myself go, and it's not pretty. Hopefully I'll kick myself into gear ... and hopefully this happens before I go to France.

I laid outside the other night, it was wonderful, I want more of that.