wouldn't it be nice?
this is rare: i sort of opened up, here. but i suppose it's halfway secret. muahaha.
1. i will always love you. i will always love you. our hearts are very close, though i hate you sometimes for doing the things you did to sabotage what we had.
2. you make me feel so many different things. i think that you and i fuel one another's fires, truly. you're addictive and sometimes i can't express myself to you as well as i'd like to, but i hope that with time we can be closer and more comfortable and even more deeply understanding with one another. i don't know how it happened, but i love my connection with you, as scandelous as it may seem. there is love present.
3. i like you and i hope you didn't mind my spontaneity on that certain occasion. (i like to think that you enjoyed it, and i often wish it hadn't been cut so short.) we have a lot of fun together and i wonder if you secretly think of me in the way i think of you. i daydream sometimes about how maybe, many years from now, you and i will have a spilling of emotions and it could be grand...
4. your mistake continues to have lasting effects on the person i am and i hate that i can't escape what happened. it's so confusing and apparently, scarring. you're a piece of shit, to put it frankly, but somehow i feel more pity than anything else toward you. more than anger.
5. i really miss being closer to you and i hope you believe me when i say i want to make plans. we have so much fun together! and i know we've got great tales to spin. you're the only person i can sing in front of comfortably. beware of humans!
6. to put it into perspective: there is nobody on earth who i would not kill for you. you're a miracle and i'll do everything i can to make your life as near to perfect as possible. i love you!
7. you have always annoyed the living shit out of me, in any given situation.
8. I'm so glad we were able to bond a little bit...sort of. sometimes i feel like you don't care for me as much as i do for you, and it's alarming how much that hurts, even if just for a fleeting moment. i still have nightmares about losing you in places. i hope you know i'm here for you. sometimes i worry for your future and the choices you may make. i think it's possible that you're in love with me, and i with you. i wonder if you've considered that. it would not be something to pursue.
9. i have a lot to thank you for, really, but i hate what a tool you are. i feel so torn sometimes because i wonder if i'm supposed to defend you anyway when i'm on the other side. it'd be nice if you could be yourself because i like you a lot more when you're not being so insanely fake. i like it when we have fun together, or geniunely agree about something. oftentimes i just nod and smile to please you.
10. i really look up to you and i hope i can prove myself a worthy being. you're a perfect balance of fun and professionalism, which i'd like also to achieve.
11. we've been so close for so long and i've always enjoyed you. i'm afraid to lose touch with you after high school.
12. i'm glad i met you this year because you're intensely fun to be around. i know that we both feel as though he will always sort of be between us, and that hinders things. but lately i feel less of a barrier and that's great because you're so fucking awesome. i would really like to be your close friend and hang out with you on weekends, haha. that's weird for me. JLL.
13. i think you're sick and it's really depressing to watch. you would never accept help. it's a downer, for sure.
14. who knows where we'd be without you? thank you so much, and i love you. you've given me some of the best, most simple, applicable, and timeless advice of my life. i worry sometimes that i don't impress you. i would never want to waste your efforts to give me opportunities in life, so i'll try to always take advantage of all the oportunities i can. expanding horizons!
1. i will always love you. i will always love you. our hearts are very close, though i hate you sometimes for doing the things you did to sabotage what we had.
2. you make me feel so many different things. i think that you and i fuel one another's fires, truly. you're addictive and sometimes i can't express myself to you as well as i'd like to, but i hope that with time we can be closer and more comfortable and even more deeply understanding with one another. i don't know how it happened, but i love my connection with you, as scandelous as it may seem. there is love present.
3. i like you and i hope you didn't mind my spontaneity on that certain occasion. (i like to think that you enjoyed it, and i often wish it hadn't been cut so short.) we have a lot of fun together and i wonder if you secretly think of me in the way i think of you. i daydream sometimes about how maybe, many years from now, you and i will have a spilling of emotions and it could be grand...
4. your mistake continues to have lasting effects on the person i am and i hate that i can't escape what happened. it's so confusing and apparently, scarring. you're a piece of shit, to put it frankly, but somehow i feel more pity than anything else toward you. more than anger.
5. i really miss being closer to you and i hope you believe me when i say i want to make plans. we have so much fun together! and i know we've got great tales to spin. you're the only person i can sing in front of comfortably. beware of humans!
6. to put it into perspective: there is nobody on earth who i would not kill for you. you're a miracle and i'll do everything i can to make your life as near to perfect as possible. i love you!
7. you have always annoyed the living shit out of me, in any given situation.
8. I'm so glad we were able to bond a little bit...sort of. sometimes i feel like you don't care for me as much as i do for you, and it's alarming how much that hurts, even if just for a fleeting moment. i still have nightmares about losing you in places. i hope you know i'm here for you. sometimes i worry for your future and the choices you may make. i think it's possible that you're in love with me, and i with you. i wonder if you've considered that. it would not be something to pursue.
9. i have a lot to thank you for, really, but i hate what a tool you are. i feel so torn sometimes because i wonder if i'm supposed to defend you anyway when i'm on the other side. it'd be nice if you could be yourself because i like you a lot more when you're not being so insanely fake. i like it when we have fun together, or geniunely agree about something. oftentimes i just nod and smile to please you.
10. i really look up to you and i hope i can prove myself a worthy being. you're a perfect balance of fun and professionalism, which i'd like also to achieve.
11. we've been so close for so long and i've always enjoyed you. i'm afraid to lose touch with you after high school.
12. i'm glad i met you this year because you're intensely fun to be around. i know that we both feel as though he will always sort of be between us, and that hinders things. but lately i feel less of a barrier and that's great because you're so fucking awesome. i would really like to be your close friend and hang out with you on weekends, haha. that's weird for me. JLL.
13. i think you're sick and it's really depressing to watch. you would never accept help. it's a downer, for sure.
14. who knows where we'd be without you? thank you so much, and i love you. you've given me some of the best, most simple, applicable, and timeless advice of my life. i worry sometimes that i don't impress you. i would never want to waste your efforts to give me opportunities in life, so i'll try to always take advantage of all the oportunities i can. expanding horizons!