just an update...
today i ran 3 miles with jess. it was fun. we ran through the snow, people in cars stared at us like we were nuts.
it's 1 am and i can't stop being mad about my body. every time i work out it seems bigger and bigger. ew!
lacrosse will start up soon :o) im going to get lots of muscle, but i really want to get toned. Poms and lacrosse will run togheter for a week, i will be soo happy then. i love sports cause you get to work out with your friends. mom said maybe we can check into joining a near-by gym. its only because she thinks i'm fat. so is she. :o) we tell each other to stop eating all the time, i threaten her with saying ill never eat again. she likes to think i could care less about my body. how bad i think of myself and how much i love music.. that's my life right now.
yummy :o)
im glad i've gotten over some things recently. i'm proud of myself. and i'm not ashamed that i would do anything to lose weight. or anything to make myself feel better.
welllll since this is my new journal, im sure no one will see this, so that's good. It's my private journal. where i write about how much i hate myself.
yayyy.
willing to make new friends.. add me if you want! :o)
it's 1 am and i can't stop being mad about my body. every time i work out it seems bigger and bigger. ew!
lacrosse will start up soon :o) im going to get lots of muscle, but i really want to get toned. Poms and lacrosse will run togheter for a week, i will be soo happy then. i love sports cause you get to work out with your friends. mom said maybe we can check into joining a near-by gym. its only because she thinks i'm fat. so is she. :o) we tell each other to stop eating all the time, i threaten her with saying ill never eat again. she likes to think i could care less about my body. how bad i think of myself and how much i love music.. that's my life right now.
yummy :o)
im glad i've gotten over some things recently. i'm proud of myself. and i'm not ashamed that i would do anything to lose weight. or anything to make myself feel better.
welllll since this is my new journal, im sure no one will see this, so that's good. It's my private journal. where i write about how much i hate myself.
yayyy.
willing to make new friends.. add me if you want! :o)