I love my friends
The last half of this week they've made a concentrated effort to prevent my moping. Today I was tossed in a car and taken to Disneyland for a day of frolicking. I had fun, despite myself. It took my mind off all the suicidal and depressive thoughts that have crept in lately. Even my ex has been really cheerful towards me.
Sometimes I'll catch a glimpse of someone that looks like L and I'll feel like crying. I still love him a great deal. He hasn't spoken to me since, and our relationship is up in the air. But even if he does call, I don't think I'll patching things up. The bottom line is that he can't be there when I need him and I don't want to be with a person like that. Maybe after he finishes school and isn't so busy we can work things out, but for now I don't think it's a good idea.
But I still love him a great deal. So this is a hard thing for me.
As my best friend pointed out, I'll find that one person amazing someday. But today, I don't really need any one person, because I've got a ton of amazing people around me who care. And you know what, I'd totally marry my best friend, if she swung that way ;).
This is me, getting over it.
This is me, not dwelling.
This is me, growing.
This is me, Sylvia.
I've come a long way, baby.
Sometimes I'll catch a glimpse of someone that looks like L and I'll feel like crying. I still love him a great deal. He hasn't spoken to me since, and our relationship is up in the air. But even if he does call, I don't think I'll patching things up. The bottom line is that he can't be there when I need him and I don't want to be with a person like that. Maybe after he finishes school and isn't so busy we can work things out, but for now I don't think it's a good idea.
But I still love him a great deal. So this is a hard thing for me.
As my best friend pointed out, I'll find that one person amazing someday. But today, I don't really need any one person, because I've got a ton of amazing people around me who care. And you know what, I'd totally marry my best friend, if she swung that way ;).
This is me, getting over it.
This is me, not dwelling.
This is me, growing.
This is me, Sylvia.
I've come a long way, baby.