It's time.

[oh_so_cavalier]

I have lost, this is truth. And I am coming to terms with that. It came in the form of a few shocking realizations tonight. They're gone. Most of them. Either they went away to college... or they just went away from me. That's alright. It happens in life. I wish the best for all of these people. What is the point in being angry about something that is beyond control? None. There is nothing to do about it all except rant and cry and throw a pity party for yourself. This gets you nowhere. So I'm letting it go. I'm letting all of you go. We had good times. But it is truly over. I will not attempt to make contact, for I know that all of you will do the same, without even reading this entry. Just live. And know that the meaning to life is so fucking easy-- just find happiness. Be grateful for what you have and who you are. We're all special fucking snowflakes or some cheesey cliche that rings similarly in our ears. I suppose in the years to come I'll just look for your obituaries and hope that you have accomplished all of your dreams.

Tonight was hard. First, it was easy. I had really good times with Cat, Shannon, and Kirsten. It was a whole lot of fun. Then, it all came crashing down. It's okay and in reality, I'm fully aware that it's not as dramatic as I'm making it out to be. It's fine. And I'm done.

Oh, right. This is the last entry. Good knowing you.