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i hate my stomach
its fucking retarded.
BUT my gay stomach allowed me to come home from school today
I went for first period so I could take my appendicular bones practical
then drove my ass home
did homework
watched two hours worth of ER.. and Sylvia Brownne on Montel
and now here I am
I'm trying to find a job as a Pharm Tech or a PSA considering pharmacy is going to be my profession. I'm getting nervous for some reason. Maybe its the fact that in five months I will be out of high school and have to survive on my own. The thought of failure always creeps into my mind. What if i can't handle pharmacy school. How do I plan on paying for it. What do I do with my life if for some reason I do fail. I know I shouldn't think like that, but for some reason I can't help it. Maybe its just my anxiety kicking in. But whatev. I seriously need to bust my ass though. After 6/7 years of schooling, straight out of college I'd be making 89-93,000 dollars. That is pretty much both of my parents' salaries combined, and they are 45 years old. I'd be a fucking baller. I just need to keep telling myself its only 7 years, then for the rest of my life I'm not going to have to worry. I never want to live paycheck to paycheck. Bahh i dont know. All I can say is brain, PLEASE don't fail me now. But I'm done with my crazy rambling, and I believe I'm going to go watch some more Tv, and read AP Euro and wait for Ian to come rescue me.
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its fucking retarded.
BUT my gay stomach allowed me to come home from school today
I went for first period so I could take my appendicular bones practical
then drove my ass home
did homework
watched two hours worth of ER.. and Sylvia Brownne on Montel
and now here I am
I'm trying to find a job as a Pharm Tech or a PSA considering pharmacy is going to be my profession. I'm getting nervous for some reason. Maybe its the fact that in five months I will be out of high school and have to survive on my own. The thought of failure always creeps into my mind. What if i can't handle pharmacy school. How do I plan on paying for it. What do I do with my life if for some reason I do fail. I know I shouldn't think like that, but for some reason I can't help it. Maybe its just my anxiety kicking in. But whatev. I seriously need to bust my ass though. After 6/7 years of schooling, straight out of college I'd be making 89-93,000 dollars. That is pretty much both of my parents' salaries combined, and they are 45 years old. I'd be a fucking baller. I just need to keep telling myself its only 7 years, then for the rest of my life I'm not going to have to worry. I never want to live paycheck to paycheck. Bahh i dont know. All I can say is brain, PLEASE don't fail me now. But I'm done with my crazy rambling, and I believe I'm going to go watch some more Tv, and read AP Euro and wait for Ian to come rescue me.
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