hmmm...
This has been an interesting weekend... I feel like I have hit a pivitol point in my life. Let me reflect. Tonight, I was hard at work, when my computer decided to randomly stop letting me compile a Java Program. I spent a good 2 hours trying to figure out what was wrong with it, to no avail. I am now getting a 0 on this assignment, which is one of five that determines 40% of my grade in this class. Not good.
I met some really cool people this weekend, and I finally started being social again. It feels great. I'm having a lot of fun, but my school work has started to suffer. Here in lies the dilemma. Which is more important? Feeling great, having a good time with cool people, or school? I've tried really hard to strike a balance this semester, and I have now found both ends of the spectrum: working 5 hours a day learning what I see as pointless information that I'm not really interested in and not having a socail life; or getting D's and F's on assignments and tests and having the time of my life at parties, hanging out with friends, and just having fun. The middle ground. Having fun, while maintaining a C average. That is really hard to do.
Just now, after trying to get my computer to cooperate, I gave up and decided to go out into the living room where my friends were smoking a hookah, drinking a few beers, and watching super troopers. I am having a blast. I just blew the greatest smoke rings ever, and pondered upon my existance.
What should I do? I honestly don't know. There are promises of a very lucrative future if I conintue to study hard in school, but what does that really mean? Lucrative? Do I really want that, is that what is important to me? I wish I knew. Right now, it seems like going out into the living room and having fun is what I should be doing. If I had really wanted to, I could have gone to the computing commons at 11:45 tonight and finished my program around 4am. Why would I do that?
I'm so confused...
I met some really cool people this weekend, and I finally started being social again. It feels great. I'm having a lot of fun, but my school work has started to suffer. Here in lies the dilemma. Which is more important? Feeling great, having a good time with cool people, or school? I've tried really hard to strike a balance this semester, and I have now found both ends of the spectrum: working 5 hours a day learning what I see as pointless information that I'm not really interested in and not having a socail life; or getting D's and F's on assignments and tests and having the time of my life at parties, hanging out with friends, and just having fun. The middle ground. Having fun, while maintaining a C average. That is really hard to do.
Just now, after trying to get my computer to cooperate, I gave up and decided to go out into the living room where my friends were smoking a hookah, drinking a few beers, and watching super troopers. I am having a blast. I just blew the greatest smoke rings ever, and pondered upon my existance.
What should I do? I honestly don't know. There are promises of a very lucrative future if I conintue to study hard in school, but what does that really mean? Lucrative? Do I really want that, is that what is important to me? I wish I knew. Right now, it seems like going out into the living room and having fun is what I should be doing. If I had really wanted to, I could have gone to the computing commons at 11:45 tonight and finished my program around 4am. Why would I do that?
I'm so confused...