so horrible

[oh_shit_fool]

im at my grammas right now
and as most of you know my grampa killed him self last week.
well tomorrow is the funeral so im in redding for the weekend

today was horrible because..
i knew my grampa died but it hadnt really sunk in until i got to his house and he didnt come out side to greet me like he usually does
im gonna start crying as i write this
i miss my grampa so bad
i dont know why he did this
i hate suicide so much
its the worst thing ever
well i walked into the house and i lost it
i cried so hard
i just let it all rush out
he shot himself in the head
right behind his ear
so the bullet went up
and its in the ceiling
i saw the hole
it was horrible
and after he shot himself he fell to the floor
and so there was a huge blood stain
but they cut it out of the carpet and covered it with a fancy rug

it hurts so bad
i mean yea he was just a grampa
but i love him
and im gonna miss him so bad

tomorrow is the funeral
and since he was in the war its gonna be one of those ones where some soldiers fold the flag and all that stuff

this is horrible
im going to sleep early
goodnight all