need to go for a walk
i'm not bored, but i feel guilty. i feel extremely LAZY! i should go to the store and get some major cleaning supplies and scrub my parents house down. BUT i am going to get some of my things from Dayton this weekend, and it is FULL of all the stuff i would purchase today...i should wait til next week, right? right.
Now my dilemma is that i need to do something. i am sitting around doing NOTHING all the time! why does everyone have to work?!
i am babysitting the nephew this evening and we will go and play and have good times, but i just have to wait for about 5 hours until its time for that.
i am trying to keep some sort of journal/blog up to date, i figure that is a good use of my time. i just might have NOTHING to write since my life is at a standstill and i spend too much time alone!
I have been updating my photos and videos online as well. i just need to decide where i actually want to keep them all so i don't keep using 3 different sites!
I had wrote a letter yesterday. it is 4 pages long and i coulda made it go a lot further but i thought for the sake of the poor reader i should cut it short.
It felt good to actually write words with a pen! i have hardly been off the computer in weeks, so i forgot what it was like to communicate in a different medium! i hope my friend likes their letter, i think it spelled out a lot of things that would otherwise not be said. i hope it doesn't frighten or offend them or make them run for the hills. (not sure why that would happen, i just keep picturing people running away lately)
Am i running away? i feel like i have. i think there was good reason, but i wonder if i am just a pussy.
all i can say is that i am VERY content with EVERY aspect of my life. i feel like things are coming full circle for me and that i might just end up with everything i wanted all along.
even if i don't, i will be happy knowing i have done all i can to better my life and i have a newfound respect for not having everything you think you should. sometimes its just not right and sometimes its just the timing that isn't right.
woa. gotta go. i just blew my mind with my cryptic messages!
Now my dilemma is that i need to do something. i am sitting around doing NOTHING all the time! why does everyone have to work?!
i am babysitting the nephew this evening and we will go and play and have good times, but i just have to wait for about 5 hours until its time for that.
i am trying to keep some sort of journal/blog up to date, i figure that is a good use of my time. i just might have NOTHING to write since my life is at a standstill and i spend too much time alone!
I have been updating my photos and videos online as well. i just need to decide where i actually want to keep them all so i don't keep using 3 different sites!
I had wrote a letter yesterday. it is 4 pages long and i coulda made it go a lot further but i thought for the sake of the poor reader i should cut it short.
It felt good to actually write words with a pen! i have hardly been off the computer in weeks, so i forgot what it was like to communicate in a different medium! i hope my friend likes their letter, i think it spelled out a lot of things that would otherwise not be said. i hope it doesn't frighten or offend them or make them run for the hills. (not sure why that would happen, i just keep picturing people running away lately)
Am i running away? i feel like i have. i think there was good reason, but i wonder if i am just a pussy.
all i can say is that i am VERY content with EVERY aspect of my life. i feel like things are coming full circle for me and that i might just end up with everything i wanted all along.
even if i don't, i will be happy knowing i have done all i can to better my life and i have a newfound respect for not having everything you think you should. sometimes its just not right and sometimes its just the timing that isn't right.
woa. gotta go. i just blew my mind with my cryptic messages!