Worries are my friends
Dr. appointment today. expected it to be a nonevent...i was wrong. she found a lump in my right breast. now i have to wait 2 weeks for an ultrasound and mamogram. no thank you. i don't want the mamogram. they are scary and painful.
i am not pregnant....again....not surprised, that would be too good of a thing. i am feeling like a mopey, whiney dumb-*ss.
I am tired of everything and i don't want to go through another scary thing alone. i am too far away and feel like there is nobody that understands me here. even if i was back home i would be too lazy and stupid to try and be close to anyone anyhow. that is how i work.
wondering where a lot of people are lately, i miss a lot of the people i used to know, and i doubt i will ever get to know them again. mainly for the reason that i apperantly pissed them off or whatever and now there are grudges. i am to flighty to remember why i even pissed them off, too! that is the sad part, so i am not even sure who hates me, or why the do. what a great job i have done.
boy i am feeling sorry for myself today. i just can't seem to get outa this funky mood. probably just a way to avoid doing anything today. i have to work later though. i get to do some nail clients for the salon and then i will get shackeled to the front desk to answer phones.
ok well whatever this rant was all about. i will try to move on and get on with things.
i am not pregnant....again....not surprised, that would be too good of a thing. i am feeling like a mopey, whiney dumb-*ss.
I am tired of everything and i don't want to go through another scary thing alone. i am too far away and feel like there is nobody that understands me here. even if i was back home i would be too lazy and stupid to try and be close to anyone anyhow. that is how i work.
wondering where a lot of people are lately, i miss a lot of the people i used to know, and i doubt i will ever get to know them again. mainly for the reason that i apperantly pissed them off or whatever and now there are grudges. i am to flighty to remember why i even pissed them off, too! that is the sad part, so i am not even sure who hates me, or why the do. what a great job i have done.
boy i am feeling sorry for myself today. i just can't seem to get outa this funky mood. probably just a way to avoid doing anything today. i have to work later though. i get to do some nail clients for the salon and then i will get shackeled to the front desk to answer phones.
ok well whatever this rant was all about. i will try to move on and get on with things.