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Boys
Boys
Boys.
I dont know who is genuine anymore, I want to believe everything that everyone says to me. But I dont.
Like " You're the only girl I'm interested in" from a boy who lives 1000 miles away.
Or, "You're perfect for me, I want you to be mine" from a boy who I had the biggest crush on when I was 15, and would have probably been with if it wasnt for my shitty choice of being with Sean.
Its hard to feel that emotional connection with anyone anymore. I cant make myself feel anything for anyone. Maybe its because they just arent the right ones. Which is probably the case.. I think now I'm starting to figure out how my emotions work.
Speaking of work, I got a job! Finally, I'm working at Banana Republic in Marlton @ the Promenade. I have to go in there today from 1-4 to fill out the paperwork. So I guess I'll get my schedule and figure out when I start then. Hopefully I dont screw up and everything goes well. And hopefully I like it. The new clothes they have are gorgeous and I get 50% off of 5 items per month. Anything else I buy after the 5 items is 30% off. Which is pretty sweet.
It'll be nice to have some money again and be doing something with my life.
I cant wait for October. I want to spend some time and see how we interact with eachother and if Rob could be someone that I could invest a little effort into. Beach, haunted hayride, dinner, icecream. I'm really looking forward to this, so please come home soon and please disprove everything that Jared said about you.