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Im feeling very claustrophobic lately. Lke I'm spinning in a space thats too small.
Ive been thinking alot about my relationships and why they failed. All I have to say to Gary now, all bitterness and hate aside; Thank you for loving me. Thank you for being a person in my life that made a lasting impression, for not only good but bad, and horrible things you've done.
My head is back to its nostalgic slush, like summer has ended and winter has swooped in and covered me and my thoughts with a cold and standoffish attitude. I dont want to even go out anymore, I just get this really bad anxiety and I dont want to leave my house. Im scared.. Scared of change, scared of everything that needs to happen in my life to make it better. Im scared of all of it. My head is filled with restlessness. Nothing makes sense and I dont know how to feel and I'm scared. I need lies to make it through the day, and I'm not okay.
"I threw everything out that doesn't make sense
To find a thousand more things that don't make sense
And I can't help but get lost in a fault like this
When I don't know how to hide myself in open air" - Copeland- Careful Now
Ive been thinking alot about my relationships and why they failed. All I have to say to Gary now, all bitterness and hate aside; Thank you for loving me. Thank you for being a person in my life that made a lasting impression, for not only good but bad, and horrible things you've done.
My head is back to its nostalgic slush, like summer has ended and winter has swooped in and covered me and my thoughts with a cold and standoffish attitude. I dont want to even go out anymore, I just get this really bad anxiety and I dont want to leave my house. Im scared.. Scared of change, scared of everything that needs to happen in my life to make it better. Im scared of all of it. My head is filled with restlessness. Nothing makes sense and I dont know how to feel and I'm scared. I need lies to make it through the day, and I'm not okay.
"I threw everything out that doesn't make sense
To find a thousand more things that don't make sense
And I can't help but get lost in a fault like this
When I don't know how to hide myself in open air" - Copeland- Careful Now