the bitterness is growing inside

[oh_my_devine]

it's about time for my reality check.
tomorrow will be college essay/english homework/trig homework/artwork day.
i really need to improve my work ethic.

oh god, i'm never going to parsons.
oh god, i'm never going to college.
oh god, i'm going to work at a fast food joint for the rest of my life.
oh god, oh god, oh god.

no.
i'm going to college.
i hate you, inner voice.

im quitting cigarettes.
my hearts going a little fast.
and i can't breathe very well.
but other than that, i'm ok.