silent sound sounds from the telephone ..
life is a whore. it really is ..
last night I was lying in my bed in a dark room listening to music and feeling somewhat lonely without any particular reason .. and I thought - where the fuck are all my "friends" now?? where are they when I need them the most? my cell phone was on so I was reachable .. but it was still .. no one called .. I didn't expect them to, anyway ..
I hate when things like that come into your mind. I hate that I have become a bit too dependant on people .. I used to be more like a loner, had to do everything on my own .. but that didn't lead me anywhere but to depression cos I overwhelmed myself with the problems of others, trying to help them, but forgot all about myself .. and things just slided overhead 'til I was totally helpless and unable to do anything about it ..
well, anyway .. enough of that .. this shit only makes me feel down .. and I have had enough of this!
anyway, Taavi sent me a letter today, trying to comfort me that I can't see the parade .. cos my fucking exam starts at 11 and the parade is from 12 to 12.30 pm .. but I think I can go to Raadi by 3 pm ..
so anyway the cyclists will go to Annimatsi on Saturday night .. and Taavi said he could ask someone to pick me up if I wanted to go there .. yay! I could ride a motorcycle :)) gosh I love that guy *lol* .. :*
last night I was lying in my bed in a dark room listening to music and feeling somewhat lonely without any particular reason .. and I thought - where the fuck are all my "friends" now?? where are they when I need them the most? my cell phone was on so I was reachable .. but it was still .. no one called .. I didn't expect them to, anyway ..
I hate when things like that come into your mind. I hate that I have become a bit too dependant on people .. I used to be more like a loner, had to do everything on my own .. but that didn't lead me anywhere but to depression cos I overwhelmed myself with the problems of others, trying to help them, but forgot all about myself .. and things just slided overhead 'til I was totally helpless and unable to do anything about it ..
well, anyway .. enough of that .. this shit only makes me feel down .. and I have had enough of this!
anyway, Taavi sent me a letter today, trying to comfort me that I can't see the parade .. cos my fucking exam starts at 11 and the parade is from 12 to 12.30 pm .. but I think I can go to Raadi by 3 pm ..
so anyway the cyclists will go to Annimatsi on Saturday night .. and Taavi said he could ask someone to pick me up if I wanted to go there .. yay! I could ride a motorcycle :)) gosh I love that guy *lol* .. :*