Jun 16, 2005 19:42
i've resorted to emailing myself and printing it out to glue in my journal at the end of the day. i havent done it yet, but i will. and its all because what i want to write, will take to long, and i dont feel like complaining to an online journal because i know its not my sister, its me that has the problem. somehow i have to find a way to deal with it before our relationship as sisters totally deteriorates (sp?) and i hate her for the rest of my life. i dont want that at all. but if i cant begin to like myself, how am i ever going to like her or anyone else?
it always seems so simple, but we all know that it isnt. lets face it, we'll never be who we want to be. ever. i'd like to think it's not true, but.. i know better.
SOM is saturday, what time are we going? and are we going to meet there or at someones house? yuuh..
i dont have a job for the summer, i dont plan on finding one until i get hired again in the fall. i'd be taking 2 weeks to go to florida, one day for warped tour, one day for the bsb concert and then a week to go with katie to sauble, and anything else that may just so happen to fall into place. maybe ill get one in august because all of the above happen in july. who knows.
im done.. bye