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His internet was broken...?
Was that true?
Well....I guess I haven't really tried to speak much to him myself either...but things just seem so...not "lonely"...but things just...aren't right...it's so stupid, whenever either of us has a problem neither of us will tell the other. We like to try to "protect" each other, I guess...or just not let the other worry.....
But that isn't right....whenever Adia was ill, she would be sure to let Gimah know that she was not feeling well, and she would accept him helping her - he would take care of her. But when I was sick......I guess it was because I didn't want Russell to worry, so I kept saying that everything was okay, that I would be okay. I knew that was far from the truth, that I needed to rest and get better.....but.....
It's definitely not just one person doing this - we've both been guilty of it. Hmm...I guess I am a hypocrite...I've preached against it, yet I've gone ahead and done it afterwards myself.
Adia....why did Gimah have to die? And you, too...I guess that was just how things were meant to be...? I have to learn to deal with things on my own...but I miss you both so much...I just wish some way I could speak again to you, Adia...just once more...
Russell.....what are we going to do? You need to trust me, and I need to trust you, too...
You said things you shouldn't have...but I said things that I shouldn't have also...I'm sure neither of us meant what we said but it still hurts....
I don't want it to hurt....I love you...
(( *cries* I haven't made a post by her in AGES ;__;
=D Which is why I must make more and more and more!!! XD
And I also had a post by Excel that I wanted to post up today...o.O But apparently they didn't have school today...?))