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no matter how tired i am during the day, i get into bed at night and am in so much pain that i immediately wake up. can't sleep. restless. turning over. waiting. i want to be held but it doesn't help. i want to cry but it doesn't help. i want to writhe and yell and make demands. it doesn't help. i want to sleep.
patty griffin on repeat. sitcoms. sweatshirt on. sweatshirt off.
the second it stops in my spine, it starts in my neck. the second it stops in my neck, it starts in my spine. i feel it in my hip. in my leg. when i stand up it's in the bottom of my foot.
i want it to stop.
the doctor doesn't care. so many patients. i'm a case file. it hurts less on paper. i'll have to live with it. take some advil.
it's getting worse. every day.
church on sunday. everyone bowed their heads to pray. i couldn't look down. i can't look down anymore. it's getting worse.
sitcoms.
patty griffin.
sitcoms.
i want to sleep.
patty griffin on repeat. sitcoms. sweatshirt on. sweatshirt off.
the second it stops in my spine, it starts in my neck. the second it stops in my neck, it starts in my spine. i feel it in my hip. in my leg. when i stand up it's in the bottom of my foot.
i want it to stop.
the doctor doesn't care. so many patients. i'm a case file. it hurts less on paper. i'll have to live with it. take some advil.
it's getting worse. every day.
church on sunday. everyone bowed their heads to pray. i couldn't look down. i can't look down anymore. it's getting worse.
sitcoms.
patty griffin.
sitcoms.
i want to sleep.