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the doctor said,
"the horrible position you're in is that you're going to be in pain for the rest of your life and there's really nothing we can do for you."
i have a spinal birth defect,
go figure.
21 years of increasing pain should have clued someone (me) in before now.
i guess denial really does wonders for a person's logic.
regardless i'm still smiling. david has gone with me to every appointment and is going with me next friday to the specialist. he watched me cry for the first time and held my hand on the car ride home. he met my family in philly and they love him. i love him. i love how we are together. it's so easy to be with him. to care about him. to know him. to try really hard to open up and let him know me. well...it's not easy, but i am trying.
school application is in. should find out soon. doing scholarship apps every day.
just tired, mostly.
but happy.
"the horrible position you're in is that you're going to be in pain for the rest of your life and there's really nothing we can do for you."
i have a spinal birth defect,
go figure.
21 years of increasing pain should have clued someone (me) in before now.
i guess denial really does wonders for a person's logic.
regardless i'm still smiling. david has gone with me to every appointment and is going with me next friday to the specialist. he watched me cry for the first time and held my hand on the car ride home. he met my family in philly and they love him. i love him. i love how we are together. it's so easy to be with him. to care about him. to know him. to try really hard to open up and let him know me. well...it's not easy, but i am trying.
school application is in. should find out soon. doing scholarship apps every day.
just tired, mostly.
but happy.