I've been losing so much time.
Everyday I wake up and agree... this is my life. These are the shoes I've chosen to walk in and despite everything I've gone through, these shoes fit me oh so well. I've experienced the dissapointments. The hurt and the happiness that goes along with loving someone and losing someone all in the same day. I've experienced passion and the warm embrace of a lover or a distant friend returned. I've missed out and I've mended my broken heart many times over. But if there's one thing I could say I've never experienced, it is regret, because throughout everything and every day I've lived, I have never regretted anything I've done. Any decision I've made and every place I've walked in these shoes. Every day is a gift. Every time I breathe I am thankful. I am grateful. Every time I see the faces of the ones I love, I'm also thankful and grateful and if tomorrow is my last day, I will live it just like that. Like I've lived every day so far. Like it was my last, and if I could relive each day, with all its heartache and beauty, I wouldn't live them any other way then how I have. I will remember every tear I've shed and be happy I was able to experience what it feels like to cry.
One day I hope to look back at these years and wish I could relive them, not wish I could forget them. I will never forget anything. It scares me, you know, to know that one day my life will be completely changed and it scares me to know I haven't the slightest idea what I'm going to become or where I'll be. A little part of me is ready to grow up but the rest of me wishes to be young forever. Wishes for the impossible. It's crazy to realize that one day I will hopefully be married with kids and a steady job and I'll look back and wonder where the hell the time went. I already do. I'm going to be a senior next year and I can remember when I was in 1st or 2nd grade. What happened to that? What happened to when we were young and carefree. There was no pressure to be anybody, aside from ourselves and life wasn't so complicated. We didn't sit and contemplate the things we do now. Life is truly amazing. It is truly incredible. We make it seem so complex when in reality, it's very simple. We can choose whatever life we want, if our heart is strong enough to walk down those roads that contain our "impossible" dreams. Nothing is impossible. Remember that, in everything you do.
One day we will all be distant memories held close to the heart. Every one of you will be a memory held inside my heart. I won't forget any of you. I know that I can promise you that, if anything.
Friends are life's little lessons. Each one that comes in and out of our lives leaves us with something to hold onto. Something emotional and mental. Something we've learned that we will carry with us for the rest of our journey.
Families are our teachers. But not the kind of teacher you find in any school. Families teach us how to love and how to be loved. They teach us how to be who we will one day become.
Everything I have experienced has become a part of me. Every moment has made me who I am today and I think, so far, I've turned out fine. No one is perfect and I believe it is our imperfections that make us beautiful. There is nothing more beautiful than being individual.
Remember that.
One day I hope to look back at these years and wish I could relive them, not wish I could forget them. I will never forget anything. It scares me, you know, to know that one day my life will be completely changed and it scares me to know I haven't the slightest idea what I'm going to become or where I'll be. A little part of me is ready to grow up but the rest of me wishes to be young forever. Wishes for the impossible. It's crazy to realize that one day I will hopefully be married with kids and a steady job and I'll look back and wonder where the hell the time went. I already do. I'm going to be a senior next year and I can remember when I was in 1st or 2nd grade. What happened to that? What happened to when we were young and carefree. There was no pressure to be anybody, aside from ourselves and life wasn't so complicated. We didn't sit and contemplate the things we do now. Life is truly amazing. It is truly incredible. We make it seem so complex when in reality, it's very simple. We can choose whatever life we want, if our heart is strong enough to walk down those roads that contain our "impossible" dreams. Nothing is impossible. Remember that, in everything you do.
One day we will all be distant memories held close to the heart. Every one of you will be a memory held inside my heart. I won't forget any of you. I know that I can promise you that, if anything.
Friends are life's little lessons. Each one that comes in and out of our lives leaves us with something to hold onto. Something emotional and mental. Something we've learned that we will carry with us for the rest of our journey.
Families are our teachers. But not the kind of teacher you find in any school. Families teach us how to love and how to be loved. They teach us how to be who we will one day become.
Everything I have experienced has become a part of me. Every moment has made me who I am today and I think, so far, I've turned out fine. No one is perfect and I believe it is our imperfections that make us beautiful. There is nothing more beautiful than being individual.
Remember that.