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Do you know how bad I am at updating my journal?
Well, I'm back at school which is a bit of a change. It's nice to be back, but, in the same right, it's really weird. I guess it's back to actually working again. I get in such a weird rut at home andit's nice to break free from that. At home, old habits are easy to resort back to, and I don't want to be the person I was in the summer. It's so hard though.
My great aunt passed away this weekend. It's so surreal. I hate the fact that I can never wrap my mind around the idea of death. I mean, she had alzheimers, which in away makes you lose her already, but I still feel like I should have some sense of loss. I hate being so numb. Life and death, it's such a weird concept. I wish I could just get my thoughts straight, but as always, I'm a random, scattered thinker. It's who I am. I guess there is nothing I can do about it.
Well, I'm back at school which is a bit of a change. It's nice to be back, but, in the same right, it's really weird. I guess it's back to actually working again. I get in such a weird rut at home andit's nice to break free from that. At home, old habits are easy to resort back to, and I don't want to be the person I was in the summer. It's so hard though.
My great aunt passed away this weekend. It's so surreal. I hate the fact that I can never wrap my mind around the idea of death. I mean, she had alzheimers, which in away makes you lose her already, but I still feel like I should have some sense of loss. I hate being so numb. Life and death, it's such a weird concept. I wish I could just get my thoughts straight, but as always, I'm a random, scattered thinker. It's who I am. I guess there is nothing I can do about it.