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so i need a bf. haha. j/k. no, i wasnt. im serious. i also need a hobby. no, actually, i dont need a hobby either. i dont need a job. Hope for the Flowers is an amazing book. if anyone ever gets the chance it's by far my favorite book ever. and Catcher in the Rye runs a close second.
i loath guard.
and that depresses me. i used to absolutly love it. hopefully, once we start competing, i wont hate it anymore. it's just blah. but then again, so is every thing else at the moment. my mom still hasnt gotten my new anti-depr. meds and i'm still waiting to find a theripist. i am i mental case. a case of bad dreams and stomache churning thoughts.
i hate school. i hate being alone. i hate that i have so much negative energy.
sometimes though i am completly in love with myself. i think im funny. i crak myself up actually.
last night i came up with the brilliant idea that i need to kiss matt. just kiss him. with "lightning speed." so lunch rally and i went and got him outta class and we walk around and i just couldnt do it. i guess i was nervious. but i dunno. i never feel that way ever. i didnt like it. but anyway we went into the art room and he see's paige and tries to get her attention. and that made me mad. it just did. so then when we walked him back to class i shook his hand for about 2.5836 min. untill he went back to class. i came so close, but then i heard *matt's voice* "paige, paaaiiige!" so i didnt kiss matt with lightning speed today. but i have every intintion of telling him what i was plotting next time i see him. so there, take that, bitch. :)
i pinched vince's but today. it was a riot. except no one rioted besides alison and i.
speaking of riots... cy is taking me to and from school mon. and i talked to him about it and it was and orgasmic experiance. when we (we=rally&i) turned down a corner(so cy couldnt see us) alison screamed. it was sooooooo funny! and mr. wollfe, (maybe?) a principal im pretty sure, said "girls! dont scream! this isnt a library, but it's not a football game either." you would have to be an idiot not to figure that one out.
i am going to go read my book in a steamy tub of wa-wa (water, fool). so there.
i loath guard.
and that depresses me. i used to absolutly love it. hopefully, once we start competing, i wont hate it anymore. it's just blah. but then again, so is every thing else at the moment. my mom still hasnt gotten my new anti-depr. meds and i'm still waiting to find a theripist. i am i mental case. a case of bad dreams and stomache churning thoughts.
i hate school. i hate being alone. i hate that i have so much negative energy.
sometimes though i am completly in love with myself. i think im funny. i crak myself up actually.
last night i came up with the brilliant idea that i need to kiss matt. just kiss him. with "lightning speed." so lunch rally and i went and got him outta class and we walk around and i just couldnt do it. i guess i was nervious. but i dunno. i never feel that way ever. i didnt like it. but anyway we went into the art room and he see's paige and tries to get her attention. and that made me mad. it just did. so then when we walked him back to class i shook his hand for about 2.5836 min. untill he went back to class. i came so close, but then i heard *matt's voice* "paige, paaaiiige!" so i didnt kiss matt with lightning speed today. but i have every intintion of telling him what i was plotting next time i see him. so there, take that, bitch. :)
i pinched vince's but today. it was a riot. except no one rioted besides alison and i.
speaking of riots... cy is taking me to and from school mon. and i talked to him about it and it was and orgasmic experiance. when we (we=rally&i) turned down a corner(so cy couldnt see us) alison screamed. it was sooooooo funny! and mr. wollfe, (maybe?) a principal im pretty sure, said "girls! dont scream! this isnt a library, but it's not a football game either." you would have to be an idiot not to figure that one out.
i am going to go read my book in a steamy tub of wa-wa (water, fool). so there.