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I've been thinking about my life, and what's going to happen as I start to get older. I'm starting to wonder about that I want to do in my life. I have goals, but, i'm just not sure how to go about them. My goals are;
-Be a cosmotolgist[sp], eventually open my own shop.
-Be a photographer.
-Be a professional piercer, maybe open my own shop.
-Be a rockstar.
Being a rockstar is my dream. It's what I want more than anything. I just, don't know where to go, to try and pursue it, y'know, Oswego.. has nothing. I'd most likely have to get to the city. Leave my family, friends, and such behind, and try my fucking hardest to be a rockstar. Or any kind of star. After Mat and I broke up, i've been writing a lot, i've been getting new thoughts on what to right. Like I said, i'd have to leave my family and friends, hed to the city.. i'm just afraid to leave, I don't want to fail anymore. I don't want to be known as the girl who repeated 7th grade twice, and who works at Mcdonalds all her life. I want to make my life into something, I want to be known as something, I want my name to be mentioned 20 years after i'm gone. I want to be known as the girl who made it.
And I will make it. I will. I'm tired of having everyone call me stupid, and shit, i'm going to fucking graduate highschool, I am going to make my life into something, and if you don't believe me, or have faith in me, i'm giving you a big fat FUCK YOU. Because, I will make it.
I will.
And i'm ready to change.