I drempt I was a heroin addict
My parents- I cannot stand them.
I have to get out of this house as soon as possible.
I have to fucking graduate, too.
Euh.
Work- I've so few hours lately, I can't stand it.
But at the same time- I enjoy the time off to go outside &/or socialize.
Less hours does mean less money, though (less $ for moving out)...
& less having fun at work.
I feel useless when I'm at home.
I get depressed when I'm alone (lately)
But back to work-
Jeffrey wants me to decorate a board for our Amy's Blend
which supports breast cancer research.
Brandon- Well...
I'm happy for him, he has a new girlfriend.
It happens to be the girl he indirectly went to Sadies with (go figure).
I miss talking to/seeing him- I guess that friendship thing didn't work out how I'd hoped.
I know he sees me. I see him see me, but his looks never seem too inviting,
So I keep to myself -whether I want to or not-.
Even better:
Brent&Ross invited me to a 'partAy' they're having this weekend
-Brandon'll be there, along with Megan, his new babycakes-
So will a shit load of crackcocaine (HA)
Perhaps I'll go (then again, maybe not...)
Yeah. Most likely not, but who knows.
I also heard he had recently dipped into drugs again
(butjustonce)
which sort of pisses me off 'cos he told me not to do them.
Actually pretty bluntly said if I were to do them, we couldn't be together...
FUCK caring about that though (right?)
That's all over.
Yeah... I shouldn't give a damn.
He can do what he wants.
Why should I (lookout) for him, or be angry that he's doing
what it is he told me not to.
Patrick-
Ummm. Yeah.
Just Patrick, that's all I'm going to say about that.
I itch for (more) pain.
Even though I can't handle the pain I'm in.
I have to get out of this house as soon as possible.
I have to fucking graduate, too.
Euh.
Work- I've so few hours lately, I can't stand it.
But at the same time- I enjoy the time off to go outside &/or socialize.
Less hours does mean less money, though (less $ for moving out)...
& less having fun at work.
I feel useless when I'm at home.
I get depressed when I'm alone (lately)
But back to work-
Jeffrey wants me to decorate a board for our Amy's Blend
which supports breast cancer research.
Brandon- Well...
I'm happy for him, he has a new girlfriend.
It happens to be the girl he indirectly went to Sadies with (go figure).
I miss talking to/seeing him- I guess that friendship thing didn't work out how I'd hoped.
I know he sees me. I see him see me, but his looks never seem too inviting,
So I keep to myself -whether I want to or not-.
Even better:
Brent&Ross invited me to a 'partAy' they're having this weekend
-Brandon'll be there, along with Megan, his new babycakes-
So will a shit load of crackcocaine (HA)
Perhaps I'll go (then again, maybe not...)
Yeah. Most likely not, but who knows.
I also heard he had recently dipped into drugs again
(butjustonce)
which sort of pisses me off 'cos he told me not to do them.
Actually pretty bluntly said if I were to do them, we couldn't be together...
FUCK caring about that though (right?)
That's all over.
Yeah... I shouldn't give a damn.
He can do what he wants.
Why should I (lookout) for him, or be angry that he's doing
what it is he told me not to.
Patrick-
Ummm. Yeah.
Just Patrick, that's all I'm going to say about that.
I itch for (more) pain.
Even though I can't handle the pain I'm in.